Heaven’s Skull

I found faith 

leaking from the hole

in Heaven’s skull

Upon peering in

Riddled with sin

the smoke from my ghost

Wrapped it’s tendrils around my throat

Hissing in silver tongue

”Absolution is a hoax”

It seemed an eternity

I believed the phantasm

of my past

I could not enter, I could not crawl

Through the hole

in Heaven’s skull

I did not taste

the air, thick with faith

I could not see

the light, too bright 

for my dull eyes

Instead the air

tasted of ash and flame

By my sight I blamed

the abyss in my wake

For I was blinded

in the holy light

Still I stumbled

Through the dark

Plagued by the titillations

Of my wicked heart

Godless phantoms

Nipping at my heels

Endlessly charmed

Drunk on esoteric appeal

They jeered and they moaned

Obsessed with the proposition

That I am to be

Theirs

and theirs alone

With the last of my will

I clawed my way

Through the valley

where nothing is still

Of death

and the tangible ill

Of beastly violence

and the lust for the kill

Of howls of the damned

and the agony on command

Father, trust me, I know

I’ve always been a coward

But somehow I found

that in my final hour

I cannot fail

and I cannot turn back

Forgive me 

for the strength I have lacked

Trust

that I will not crack

For all I have done

And for all I have failed to do

I am sorry

The moment my words

Reached out from my soul

My vision began to clear

and for the first time in eternities

I felt whole

My fingers felt the bones

Of the gateway, the hole

in Heaven’s skull