A place for my darker thoughts so that those that don't want to see don't look.

Cover image: Elijah O'Donnell on Unsplash

Table of Contents

No Guilt-Fest

No Guilt-Fest It’s so easy to get sucked in to the guilt, the self-blame. Should have seen, felt, understood; ... Read Chapter

The Joker!

The Joker! Heath Ledger, now there was a man who knew what it was like to feel depressed. The Joker, a part that ... Read Chapter


Condemnation What exactly have I done? I’m sure that I have never committed one single crime, apart from to let my sadn... Read Chapter

Don't Get Me Wrong

Don’t Get Me Wrong Somehow it seems that I’ve allowed a series of misconceptions to develop around me. I’m not all ... Read Chapter

Two Guys And Me

Two Guys And Me I’m gonna step back in time, maybe ‘guys’ is the wrong term to use. This was the best time and the ... Read Chapter

Abreaction Reaction

Abreaction Reaction “This won’t hurt,” he said, sliding in the needle, thal into the bloodstream. “It will, h... Read Chapter

A Guy I Once Knew

A Guy I Once Knew Perhaps ‘knew’ is an overstatement, as I only saw him when he came calling on my mother, lookin... Read Chapter


Pawns My cats are the unfortunate pawns in a display of power. Chess match tactics; the King and the Knights lay down... Read Chapter


Smile! I can do it, you know, put a smile on my face. You know the sort; that garish, brilliant, upturned splash ... Read Chapter

A Photograph

A Photograph I came across a photograph on the internet today; it made me stop, catch my breath. The likeness was unc... Read Chapter

Lead Weight

Lead weight Sometimes I feel like a balloon on a string. Not one filled with helium that soar up as high as they can ... Read Chapter

Imagine This

Imagine This Close your eyes - don’t you find imagination works better that way? Now let yourself feel that you hav... Read Chapter

Stitch and Sew

Stitch and Sew I’m going back to the ‘stitch and sew’. Pre-holed canvas, charts all marked with symbols, and colore... Read Chapter

Looking At Trees

Looking At Trees   Your timing, as always, is impeccable, at least if you are aiming to kick me when I’m down. ... Read Chapter

Ebony With A Splash Of Red

Ebony With A Splash Of Red   I’m really not feeling it today, unless it’s despair that I’m searching for. The ... Read Chapter

Recent Comments

Mike S.

Sad but excellent, Hull!

Thu, January 16th, 2020 8:06pm


Thank you, Mike.

Thu, January 16th, 2020 12:22pm

Gloria Dale

It sounds just like it would in your mind. Well done, Hulla.

Fri, January 17th, 2020 2:19am


Thanks, Gloria. I think most of these will end up being free-style rambles.

Fri, January 17th, 2020 9:54am

Sue Harris

Two words often said come to mind...if only. This is so very sad, Hully.

Fri, January 17th, 2020 2:31pm


Thanks, Sue.

Fri, January 17th, 2020 9:57am

Keke Serene

We can't force anyone to accept support, they must be receptive. But still we are left wondering. It is a tragic situation all around.

Fri, January 17th, 2020 8:45pm


It is, Stars. Thanks for reading.

Sat, January 18th, 2020 10:52am

Robert Helliger

A great, dark poem, Hull.

Sun, January 19th, 2020 8:59pm


Thanks so much for reading, Robert.

Mon, January 20th, 2020 11:01am

Origins and Tall Tales

Whoa! I feel so sad after reading this-which means great work.

Thu, January 23rd, 2020 5:41pm


Thanks, Origins.

Thu, January 23rd, 2020 10:04am


Great poem loved it

Wed, July 1st, 2020 4:23am


Thanks so much for reading.

Wed, July 1st, 2020 11:27am


Dark poetry, I know a thing or two about this. Such a difficult topic to write about, because there is no cure for this. Through depression and suicidal thoughts, most people are dismissive of any help, because it doesn't help them enough. And at the same time, we can't force them to accept help. In the end, the only voice they listen to, is the voice in their head, and most of the time unfortunately, it gives them the wrong advice. A powerful dark write Hully. This is real life, and there is no cure.

Wed, July 15th, 2020 9:29pm


Do you mind if I use that last sentence, Dexter. That really sums up how I feel. I've struggled with depression all my life, and these days it's winning more than I am. I am one of those that won't get help having experienced a long time ago what that 'help' can be like.

Thu, July 16th, 2020 1:02pm


I have no problem with you using that last sentence. Intrigued to see what kind of poem/story you would use it for :)

Sun, July 19th, 2020 2:04pm


Thanks, Dexter!

Sun, July 19th, 2020 7:08am

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