Concussed

I lay in the dark

Afraid, afraid of what comes next

I don’t want to embark

Because everything is so complex

Why do I need to keep going?

Why do you care so much?

I just want to die without anyone knowing

Stop trying to act like a crutch

I just want to go

But you keep coming back

I have tried, but I fall below

I just want everything to fade to black

I just want to be where I belong

And that sure as hell isn’t here

And I know everything you said was wrong

So just let me disappear

Living takes a lot of heart

But mine has been shattered for so long

It is too late to restart

I can no longer stay strong

I can’t think straight

I am no longer who I want to be

But I know my fate

I will be dead by three