Mixed Emotions

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic


Once again I'll try puzzle the words,

Mayhap this time I'll get it right,

No! You know what?

Mayhap I'll never get it, 

Mayhap not in this life time,

Mayhap it isn't mixed feelings,

Mayhap it's a phobia or something. 


Okay! I've thought and fed my mind,

It's a phobia I have,

I'm sacred,

Okay! Yeah! I know I'm a coward right?

No! flip! I've got mixed feelings,

I don't get it,

I hope its love and not a fling,

I want it to be love.


But wait...

What if things go South?

What if this love.. spark.. fling.. thingie runs out someday?

What if it runs out too late and I'm in too deep?

I swear I won't raise from where I'd have fallen,

I swear the pieces won't stand a chance to be glued back together.


And by the way ...

Is it even possible to take everyone's advice all at once?

Oh! Stupid me!

Why do I let them get to me?

Have so much influence on me?

"We know him better"

"His not good for you"

"Why did you choose him?"



They don't even know! 

They don't know a thing,

They don't know what I know,

They don't know how I feel,

How could they? not caring to even ask,

They don't know how much laughter we share,

How I'm treated, valued and respected,

They don't know how he kisses me right and makes love to me,

They'll never understand!


But wait..

Is it okay to put your happiness first sometimes?

Is it okay to hurt one for the other?

As long as I'm happy right?

Is it even alright to love against all odds?

Does the happiness of two matter than everybody else's?


Choose the devil you know the most?

What if the unknown devil isn't as much evil?

What if he needs me more?

What if it's destiny?


Keep your opinion !

I promise I'll live by my decision,

If it's a mistake then it's mine to make,

Believe me it would be a lovely mistake,

It's worth it!

I'd have had so much fun while at it,

I'd have felt so much love an pleasure in my lovely mistake,

At the end of the day it has to be one of the two,

Just one of the two!


Submitted: May 07, 2020

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Very nice work. The two things I really got from this were the fear of commitment - I think a lot of people feel that if they are truthful; and the other was opinions! Seems like everyone likes to tell someone how to live their own life, even though we each only get the one.

Fri, May 8th, 2020 7:14pm


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