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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

If I could go back and change the past, I would.

If I could go back in time and get the answers I need.

‘If’. That has always been the order of my life.


Broken inside I strive to be the best version of my self,

One step forward, two steps backwards,

Should I give up? Should I keep going?


What will it take for me to breakaway from my past? 

To live the way I want and not live in the shadows of my past?

Broken, I try to live, love and laugh

But at the end of the day my past always comes back to haunt me.


 Broken, I drown in my sorrows in tears every night, I ask myself 

Why me? What offense did I ever commit on this earth? 

My happiness is often short lived 

Because the pain and emptiness inside me always surpasses my ability to stay positive and be happy.


One step forward, two steps back

That always reminds me that my soul is broken beyond repair.

I wonder to myself ‘will I ever be okay?’ 

‘Will I ever escape from the shadows of my past?’

Going in circles with no answers to my questions, I remain Broken.


Submitted: May 12, 2020

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I can very much relate, especially to the 'one step forwards, two steps back'.

Tue, May 12th, 2020 7:34pm

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