Shouldn't Be (On My Mind)

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

These thoughts I'm craving are unwanted

Shouldn’t be on my mind, shouldn’t be on my mind,

 

Intruder alert, unwanted thoughts shattering the windows to my soul.

 

Shouldn’t be on my mind, shouldn’t be on my mind,

 

Eternal fire awaits, every Christmas my stocking runneth over with coal.

 

Yearning for every sunset every time that I witness a sunrise,

 

Looking forward to your forbidden touch at night, I’ve got a major problem.

 

Cravings never fucking stop, regardless if its in the spring, or if it’s in autumn,

 

Nothing about this feels right, holy water ineffective versus hand sanitizer,

 

Blazing inferno raging inside, increasingly difficult to extinguish these fires.

 

Head says yes and head says no, classic case of cognitive dissonance,

 

I want this then I hate this, cause this union is never meant to exist.

 

Abandoned by God, cause I wanted to taste the damn Dementors Kiss,

 

Can’t help the way that I feel, as disgusting and unholy as it is.

 

Shouldn’t be on my mind, shouldn’t be on my mind,

 

Intruder alert, unwanted thoughts shattering the windows to my soul.

 

Shouldn’t be on my mind, shouldn’t be on my mind,

 

Eternal fire awaits, every Christmas my stocking runneth over with coal.

 


Submitted: May 21, 2020

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hullabaloo22

The repetition works really well in this piece, MW.

Thu, May 21st, 2020 6:13pm

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Thanks for reading Hully, I wrote this one a little more like a song.

Sat, May 23rd, 2020 9:11pm

Keke Serene

Awesome imagery here, and of course, I always adore your style. There is something about not wanting to want something that makes you want it! Add that with ghosts from the past and you've got a classic pain in the ass, lol! Take care my friend and be well. :)

Fri, May 22nd, 2020 8:39am

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You know not only that but it's like when people tell you that you can't do something, then all you want is to do whatever you're being told not to XD Thanks for reading, it's always appreciated

Sat, May 23rd, 2020 9:14pm

Christy Writes

All the things we're supposed to resist are incredibly tempting, whereas in contrast, the things we already have lose their value. It's important to consider why what we desire is "wrong"; does it actually have detrimental effects on ourselves and others, or is just a societal bias? I love this one, Nik. You have some brilliant imagery here!

Fri, May 22nd, 2020 10:44am

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You ask a good question, it very well could be a mixture of yourself and a societal bias. Even if you feel as though you have everything, it feels like there's always something else that you still could have. Especially if what you have doesn't fit within what society says you should have, which can lead you to chasing that instead of valuing what you have. That's what I think, anyways, hopefully that makes sense. Thanks for reading, Christy!

Sat, May 23rd, 2020 9:17pm

Jobe Rubens

Keep observing the world like you do. Write. Write. Write. We need young Beethovens to push our craft forward. I get where you're coming from. Good work!

Thu, May 28th, 2020 2:29pm

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Thank you for those words, honestly means so much to me. Imma keep doing me, don't you worry about that! Thanks for reading!

Thu, May 28th, 2020 9:39pm

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