answer the fucking phone

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

just some shit that was going through my head. if you or someone you know needs help the suicide hotline number is 1-800-273-8255.

I want you in my life 

Actually it’s become a need to talk to you on the daily 

Your always awake 

You always listen 

And you always get me through the hardest shit 

But now it says active 30 minutes ago 

I want to talk to you and I want to see your face but your not responding 

And now it says active an hour ago 

It’s only 9:30, where the hell did you go 

The thoughts are coming back and you're the only thing that keeps them away

I need to at least get a text that says your here for me because you are my reason to stay safe 

My head is going places it hasn’t gone in months and I’m scared 

You haven’t been active in an hour and a half 

My mind is taking me deeper and deeper into those places you always pull me out of 

But your not answering 

So I go back to the only way I know how to deal with it 

I start shaking and crying because I’ve been trying so hard to stay safe for you 

Then I see your name pop up on my phone 

I wipe away the tears and practice a greeting a few times till I sound ok 

And I answer the phone


Submitted: November 17, 2020

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G. Quaglia

You're amazing, never forget that. I love you dummy, never think you need to go back there, I'm always here.

Tue, November 17th, 2020 12:32pm

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