Forever Red, Forever Blue

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

This is the story of a sensitive kid, and that kid was me.

It’s not okay to be sad here. Not within the walls of my house. And oh, how these walls are thin.

If the sadness takes over you, someone will hear it and put it out.

I know this for a fact, because I am on fire. I am constantly on fire.

My family tries to put me out, but my flames only retreat to the middle.The flames dim inside me.

Burning from my core.

I am forever red.

 

I am oxygenated, but have no room to deoxygenate.

I am just one big heart pumping in the world.

I have all push, but no pull.

I am deep inside my mother’s closet with tears falling down my face.

I’m holding onto a hanger. I can hear the tv in my mother’s room blaring.

It’s more important than me.

Everything is.

 

I was mad about something that I can’t even remember anymore.

My sister and mom are watching tv on her bed. I am crying hard. They tell me to go away.

I push on the hanger with one hand and pull on it with the other. It snaps easily.

 

There’s a little hole inside me getting bigger.

Between the two chambers of my heart, blood exchanging sides.They are mixing. 

I bleed into myself deep inside my mother’s closet. I am deoxygenated.

 

It’s okay though...

I grew the hole for all of you. You can come in now.

I look toward you all, into the yellow of the room where the tv is, the shadow of the fan whipping up both of your hair as you watch tv.

I am waiting for you here, and until you come through, I am forever red.
I am forever blue.


Submitted: November 17, 2020

© Copyright 2020 Roxanne Byrne. All rights reserved.

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Sharief Hendricks

What an excellent piece Roxanne !!!

You took me on a journey of your sensitivity and your sad emotions as your vivid imagery jumped off the screen and into my mind...
Sad and sombre and a peek into someone's world...

Loved it !!!

Tue, November 17th, 2020 12:57pm

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Wow, that means so much to me! Thank you so much for commenting and letting me know how it affected you. I really appreciate your kind feedback.

Thanks again Sharief, I'll have to check out your stuff soon too! Looks interesting!

Wed, November 18th, 2020 1:28am

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