I’m All Alone...

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Non-Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic


Nobody talks to me. Nobody answers my messages. Nobody is there when I have a bad day. Nobody is there when my head gets filled with images. I feel so alone...that’s because I am...even if I died today...nobody would give a damn...nobody gave a damn about me then, and they don’t give a damn about me now...I’m constantly abused by my mom and others...first I’m too skinny, now I’m a cow...I’m too skinny...I’m too fat...I can’t do this...I can’t do that...I’m too crazy...I’m too lazy...all these things and more, my mom and others have said...but they just roll their eyes when I tell them I’m depressed, and wish I was dead...some even laugh...some say nothing...some even say I’m exaggerating...some say that I’m bluffing...I wish that I WAS...I wish it WAS a bluff...but I tell the truth when I say that I’ve had enough. I’ve had enough of this pain...I’ve had enough of reliving this life, again and again. Some days are better then others, I must agree...Some people have it worse then me...although that is true, I am not them. This is MY life, I must live again and again. I wish it would just end. I wish I could just close my eyes and open them to Heaven. Maybe then I could be happy...even if it was just for a second...


Submitted: November 22, 2020

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KatV

Hi Rachel, this is a very painful piece. I can't really click the like button, because I'm sad about how you feel. You have expressed yourself well; even your rhyming is good. It is a good write.
You've left me wanting to talk to you. I want to tell you that YOU matter. Love yourself; make a difference. Write your way out. Write ...write .... write. Private message me if you want to talk.

Mon, November 23rd, 2020 12:33am

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Thank you so much :)

Mon, December 7th, 2020 10:58pm

Steven P. Pody

If you, Lady Rachel, acknowledge a heaven on the other side, then you are stating you believe in a higher power. Therefore, oh poet, you have already answered your own questions of "do I have worth?" and "do I have purpose?". To say there is an all-knowing, all powerful Creator is have faith that he/she neither wastes time nor makes shit. In this case a poet has been made, and you are simply going to have to stick around until you discover why the love and care put in to you matters. Have patience, learn, gain experience and find the life you were truly meant to live. Then write about it!

Mon, November 23rd, 2020 6:44am

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