Lonely Lost star LLS

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic

Everyday I say I give up every few hrs i try again. Insanity at its best.

Gang, gang, gang

Yeah yeah 6eah

 

I came into this world one of it's brightest stars.

Big plans since day one.

I Hopped off the porch early.

I Grabbed life by her throat.

I told that bitch,she's mine now and forever.

I smiled while she choked

Too the moon motherfuvker

Going all the way deep in her.

Ohh that voodoo had me caught up

She said "it hurt's". I reassure her.

Baby, it's gonna be, ok. "This is love"

In the back of my Pineal.

I just wanna get this nut n get back to the Money.

The 15 mins I spent huffing n puffin. I missed out on millions.

A nigga wish!

my bank account ain't never maintain six figures.

Nevertheless, I push thru the mud.

Speak it into existence,That's what they say.

One million,two million,three million

I watched em..everybody from, no disrespect Pac,Big,Juice.speak on death and well we all know.

So, I'm taking a different approach.

One million, two million, three million.

I can't lose, I just can't, I Refuse.

My thoughts always, if this is my last day how will they remember me?

Will they say oh mR.Neg is gone.

Or will they mourn for 3 days and say we lost a great one.

The tears I have writing these words are real.

 

I'm holding on to tight to the words.

As if I let them go I shall see no return.

I should say it just once to let some air out.

I love you.

There I said it.

It wasn't so bad except I was facing a mirror

How can I! Me, express those words too you.

When my heart won't stop pounding n that feeling in my gut. oo I hate it so much.

 

 

The sweet Aroma of Temptation.

Empty beer cans litter my dresser table thoughts in my head hardly in my own.

Days to take my life clutter my calendar the feeling of hopelessness

I almost fell for the devil tricks again another day another Temptation

I still woke up better than I did yesterday promises were made in order to keep my discipline remember the last test you failed?

I am up again with the sunlight beaming thru my window. Unbelievable.

Oil and water don't mix

Oh,Father what have i done.

I know not what I do.

Forgive me for my transgressions.

Sin after sin I couldn't help it.

Drink after drink damn, I'm thirsty.

I want a better life I said out loud for clarity

I'm, a lil down and out at the moment.

$oul selling attempting to make life a lil  different.

 

I'm holding on to tight to the words.

As if I let them go I shall see no return.

I should say it just once to let some air out.

I love you.

There I said it.

It wasn't so bad except I was facing a mirror

How can I! Me, express those words too you.

When my heart won't stop pounding n that feeling in my gut. oo I hate it so much

.

I came into this World one lucky bastard.

Raise by a single mother.

They said you gotta start at the bottom

Like I ain't already here.

They said "Dead or in Jail.."you have no Ambition".so I ran from the future they wanted for me. I had to find other options

The hate started early I swear the Haters are dream killers fck em all

When

My 9-5 don't pay my bills and we ain't even rebuilding Egypt.

Life ain't fair but We gotta live it

It's only one I got fck it.

Life sure is funny.

One million,two million,three million.

Nipsey on repeat so the message is never lost.

Ownership,ownership black man seek ownership.

Young black man caught in his skin he can't escape.

"Shut up and dribble"  a quick reminder not to get into politics.

I been on my lonely sitting in my 4 corners watching the world go by.

I wont pretend I have friends the ones in my head are the only ones that understand me.

 

I'm holding on to tight to the words.

As if I let them go I shall see no return.

I should say it just once to let some air out.

I love you.

There I said it.

It wasn't so bad except I was facing a mirror

How can I! Me, express those words too you.

When my heart won't stop pounding n that feeling in my gut. oo I hate it so much

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Submitted: November 24, 2020

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