Dear Never To Be Brother

My heart beat fast

A knot slipping between stomach and throat

My fresh tears running down my hot face

In the place of the many before

For the hours i cried are uncountable and horrible

How could this have happened! I think in despair

Like the many others who admit it not, that they cry and grieve alone in private.

I walk through the city streets looking at the buildings

He’ll never live to see this

My thoughts take my weakened moment as an opportunity to take over me once more

I burst into tears and run back to my house

Where i stare at the one picture of him,

The baby who never lived to see a rainy day,

A sunny day or a snowy one

The one who perished in the stomach

With only two weeks to go

I don't know what I would do without the support of others

My family and friends, all those great people

Whos love is beyond words and feelings

In a nightmare like this

My aunt is sweeter than the cookies she gave

My grandmas soft and warmness more cozy and comforting than her hand sewn blanket

All that love and support that is better than food, and stronger than depression

All that wonderfulness that for me, doesn't make up for losing a brother.