Chapter 3: Part 3

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Literary Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

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Part III
 
 Guest room: Onyx woke up in Kevin's arms, slowly getting up and waking him up.
 
 Kevin (yawning): "You could have slept more... It's only six o'clock."  Onyx: "I usually get up around 5:00, it turns out I fell asleep. (mild laughter) I'll prepare something to eat if mother hasn't been up, there's also plenty of stuff since yesterday. Breakfast is inevitable for me." Kevin (gets up): "Let's go down then, I'm hungry too."
 
 Downstairs, Felicity had already made everything for breakfast, surprised to see Onyx and Kevin so early. She suggested Onyx take Kevin through town for a tour, so the two of them went there after checking their e-mails and meal.
 
 She saw acquaintances talking behind their back as they passed, trying not to pay attention to it. Kevin (starts a conversation): "Is it possible that people were so cruel to you just because you had a few extra pounds? Like it's not something natural, I can't believe how people can be such a fools." Onyx: "Well, that was just the beginning. What they were saying afterwards made me really leave. When I ended up in the hospital they didn't know why, so they told all kinds of stories about me being a drug addict, that I went crazy, and the worst part was when they told I had an abortion. Can you believe it, they said I was like my mother, that I was sleeping with everyone, I even got disgusted by that act and everything that goes with it. For all of them I was what I never wanted to be, and the constant lie becomes the truth. I got sick of staying here where I'll be constantly disturbed, so I went to college, then got a job at "Gamma" and spent years there, just so I don't listen to those who have nothing better to do." Kevin: "It's better you got out of here... I don't know why a lot of people like to get involved in other people's lives so much, what it means to them. Now I see why you haven't been back here since." Onyx: "I'll take you to a place where I've often gone to be alone. I think you're going to like it."
 
 Park, in the afternoon: They arrived in a quiet park full of trees and benches, but where were not many people. In fact, when they arrived there was no one there, so they sat under a blossoming tree of basswood and enjoyed its intoxicating smell.
 Onyx: "This is my favorite bench... I'd sit here for hours and think. Hand on heart, those weren't very positive thoughts, but those are some of my memories." Kevin: "Then now you'll have a memory of us sitting here talking about some nice things. (both smile slightly) It's very nice here, too bad to keep in the memory for bad things. By the way, did you know I was so clumsy? No, but really clumsy. (Onyx smiles) I was a nerd who knew everything from matter and I knew exactly what I was going to be after school, but I never knew with the girls. Every time I fell in love they would reject me because they thought I wasn't their rank, it wasn't until I was 19 that I kissed a girl for the first time. I know, now you must think I'm miserable to the bone, but it's nothing - it wasn't until the end of college that I was with a girl the first time. See, I was totally clumsy when it comes to love." Onyx: "If it would be easier for you, I've never even come to that in my life. (Kevin looks at her) Remember I e-mailed you that I'd never been in a relationship? Well... I never got to those kisses or anything. So you don't worry, there's a more clumsy person than you. (mild laughter)" Kevin: "Hm, it has to do with your mother and that you don't want to be like her, which caused another extreme so you completely suppressed that aspect of life. Somewhere inside, there must be such emotions and needs, but it needs a lot  to come the surface. Have you ever felt that feeling like you care about someone, like you want that person to stay with you until the end? Have you ever felt safe around someone?" Onyx (looks him in the eyes): "Yes. I did." Kevin: "That was a basis for love then, when you feel that way around someone. You can develop that feeling to something wonderful... Although sometimes it's hard when it comes to one-side love - you love but you never feel what it's like to have someone love you." Onyx (keeps looking at him): "That feeling you mentioned earlier... (touches his shoulder) That feeling that I care about someone I felt for the first time when those assassins shot you here, when I was afraid you were going to die and I didn't want to lose you. I felt a sense of security the first time you caught me the day they pushed me out of my office window. The feeling that I want someone to stay with me until the end... It has evolved since the night we were at the meeting, during the day of the assassination of me, the day you left me the ring in the desk drawer, various situations in these two years, and with this journey it became stronger." Kevin (with disbelief): "You... are in love with me? Onyx... I never believed I'd be anything more than a friend to you, long ago I settled down with that... Are you sure about that?" Onyx (nods): "I tried to ignore it but it doesn't seem to work like that, just as I couldn't ignore these heavy feelings I'm dragging out of here. You mean a lot to me, too, Kevin. I can finally tell you this sure that I mean it." Kevin (embraces her): "You have no idea how happy you made me! I want to... Oh, I want to tell the whole world how happy I am! I feel like kissing you here now, though I'm not going to exaggerate. (laughs)" Onyx (gets closer): Try it. You have my permission."
 
 He leaned and kissed her slowly, aware of the fact that she had never kissed anyone in her life. It was unusual for her at first but she quickly got used to it, kissing him back.
 
After she slightly moved back, Onyx looked into the distance. Onyx (quiet): "Are you sure you won't mind my appearance?" Kevin (wondered): "You mean your extra weight from before? I wouldn't even mind if you stayed like that, don't think I'd like you less for it! I grew up with a mother who has more weight but no one called her out for it, you'll see how mild a woman she is and agrees with everyone in the neighborhood! Forget to value yourself by what some fools say, you're worth more than that." Onyx: "It may have stayed with me as something from the past, but I was thinking of something else..." Kevin: "What exactly do you mean?" Onyx: "I have scars from that period - many of them almost imperceptible, but that one on my left forearm is very visible even though it's been so long. Every time I change my clothes I have to face it, I try to think of it as something I can't go back to, but I know someone would think it's ugly." Kevin: "It's from that day, isn't it? How do you get the idea that I'd mind?" Onyx: "I don't know, I thought it would be too much for you. Yes, it was made that day." Kevin (leaned her by his side): "I have a bullet scar when I got shot, so I'm sure it won't bother me. Do you have any other doubts I should clear for you? (laughs)" Onyx(smile): "Not so far. I'd like to sort out issues with my parents, you were right it won't help me if I just keep that burden inside. If I want to get better I have to take care of it, as well as my personal thoughts from the past. Then I'll be able to really move on." Kevin: "Use your stay here for that - who knows, you might be able to solve everything or at least some of it. This is a great opportunity for you to at least try."
 
 They came back home in the evening, had dinner and went to Onyx's room to go through her memories together.


Submitted: December 03, 2020

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