you can tell me anything

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Horror  |  House: Booksie Classic

"You can tell me anything"

You said this with a concerned look on your face but you were disingenuous. I might've felt insulted if I didn't hate myself.
What are you doing with your remaining days, stagnating in vain? Do what you will, but know that your niceness is but a sickening act.
How hard would it have been for you to swallow your pride just once? To drop the act, set aside your bullshit and speak to me with some amount of sincerity and respect.
You make me feel like I'm not worthy-of anything. I experience joy vicariously through you, because you never taught me dignity or self-worth.
On my own I'm half a man; socially I gape in dumb silence with a vapid unchanging look about me. You'd never know what I'm thinking because I taught myself to internalise my emotions lest I be punished for thinking the wrong thing.
I'll always love you but I'll never hate anyone more. Of that I am sure.

"You can tell me anything"

You said this with a concerned look on your face but you were disingenuous. I might've felt insulted if I didn't hate myself.

What are you doing with your remaining days, stagnating in vain? Do what you will, but know that your niceness is but a sickening act.

How hard would it have been for you to swallow your pride just once? To drop the act, set aside your bullshit and speak to me with some amount of sincerity and respect.

You make me feel like I'm not worthy-of anything. I experience joy vicariously through you, because you never taught me dignity or self-worth.

On my own I'm half a man; socially I gape in dumb silence with a vapid unchanging look about me. You'd never know what I'm thinking because I taught myself to internalise my emotions lest I be punished for thinking the wrong thing.

I'll always love you but I'll never hate anyone more. Of that I am sure.

 


Submitted: December 27, 2020

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