My Writing Journey

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Memoir  |  House: Booksie Classic

In this memoir I share my first encounter with essay writing back in 2006 in the 10th grade, And how the whole experience reveals something about my past and current relationship to writing

Since 2006, I have been building and destroying a lot of my words, sentences, and ideas in tons of paper. It felt like one step forward and three steps back. In many occasions the thought of writing became a nightmare. I don't remember a day without thinking about giving up writing. Build and destroy was the theme of my writing experience. However, I've got used to it. Since experiencing with writing processes, I've learned that not every word or idea in the initial draft graduates to a final draft.

My first encounter to written communication was a mixture of good and bad experiences. I was introduced to essay writing the first time in 2006. I couldn't hold my excitement, fascinated by the whole idea of story telling. I was eager to tell past stories growing up as a child and future stories I always fantasied. Using writing to tell stories was better than standing in a classroom full of children ready to giggle anytime my English went south. I hated trying to sound smart while everyone could see me shivering like-a-leaf and scared to dead. I hated verbal communication. It didn't take me long though to familiarize myself with written communication, sooner my peers were fascinated by the stories I told. One of my favorite assignments was descriptive essay. My peers perceived me as a god in descriptive essays. Suddenly I befriend their imagination. Comments such as "wow man, you fascinate my imagination" motivated me to write more. However my teacher never saw a miracle in any of my work. Apparently my essays had a lot of flaws such as a bad grammar, a poor structure and a shaky prose. Those comments even though were bitter, they boosted my confidence and curiosity to learn more about how to write. From the whole experience, the positive comments from my peers and the bitter inputs from my teacher somehow strengthen my confident and curiosity to become a competence writer I am today.

It has never been an easy journey, one major factor that has been shadowing my relationship to writing is English. I think language, any language play a major role on how people think and communicate. My struggle with English delayed and almost jeopardize a good relationship I'm having with writing. I used to struggle for hours and sometimes for days to come up with words I could use to make sentences in my essays. It was a nightmare when  I had to construct varying sentences to enhance my writing style. Likewise there were many instances where I imagined a brilliant idea in my head and ended up writing something way different than what I had imagined. English robbed my imagination. In fact I enjoyed  to write in my home language more than in English. But over the years I finally learned how to write in English. I'm still learning and each day it's getting better. God! I don't believe my struggles with English almost made me give up writing. I'm glad I did not.

On a positive side though, the whole encounter taught me the power and value of reflection in written communication. Writers who reflect are more aware of their work and are able to prevent past pitfalls from interfering to current writing projects. I'm glad I acknowledged reflection and considered it every time I write. Through reflection I am more of a better writer. For example, I use reflection on my writing projects in university and outside to pin-point past mistakes and analyze where I did well in my past projects and transfer that knowledge to future writing projects. In 2006 I was in the darkness I had zero knowledge about how the power of reflection could influence my written communication. I'm more aware now. Thanks to the power reflection, I have developed an amazing writing style, a voice and a direction as a writer.  Reflection is a very powerful tool in written communication and without it I doubt my writing competence would have been this good.

My current relationship to writing is more centered to fun and enjoyment. For so long my writing had been confined to formal writing since back in high school and in the university. In school I wrote to impress peers and teachers and of course for good grades. If we were given an assignment I could spend the whole night contemplating on strategies to win everyone's impression and in the process defeating my competitors. I had sleepless nights stressing on words, sentence, paragraphs, and prose for my assignments. I was missing the whole idea of writing which is writing for enjoyment. But I am glad today I write for fun and enjoyment and less for rewards. I have started blogging, as a result my writing style is more flexible and informal. Because through blogging I'm able to express myself freely without having to worry about pressure  for grades. Fact is, having fun and enjoyment in written communication has cemented my relationship to writing. 

My relationship to writing has evolved from a bumpy start in 2006 into an amazing one. There were instance where I felt like giving up writing, but curiosity and passion cheered me on. My biggest highlight to the whole experience is acknowledging the power of  reflection which developed me to a critical and better writer. Also taking writing for fun and enjoyment and actually starting a blog cheers me on. The journey isn't over though, I am still learning the writing process. Looking in the future, I foresee my relationship to writing bright and ever-growing.


Submitted: December 31, 2020

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