I want you back in my world again

Why did I think everything you gave me was normal? 

Why did I not thank you when I had the chance? 

Now that you're gone it makes me realize how much you meant to me. 

I want you back, I want to be between your arms and smell the sweet scent of coffe and the strawberry candies you use to eat whenever you were feeling down. 

I want to listen to your voice, soft like a lullaby but sometimes strict and sometimes light. 

I want to hear your laughter again, the kind of laughter that lingered inside my mind after hearing it. 

I want to see your brilliant smile, that used to brighten everything around us. 

Lying here in my room, staring up at the gray sealing, makes me realize that I've never told you that I love you. 

I would give anything for a minute with you. 

Not enough time to thank you for everything, and to apologize for everything. 

But just enough time for me to say that I love you. 

That I want you back, that I'm missing you so much that it feels like I'm no longer alive. 

Like a part of me was torn apart and gone where I could never find it again. 

That it hurts, like I want to die just to get out of this filthy world and get free from this pain. 

Maby then,
Maby when everything's over,
I'll get to see you again. 

Maby then, I would find you again.