Aren't I Happy

Aren't I Happpy  

 I'm afraid that if I leave now,

I'll never learn to stay.

I'm afraid that if I breathe out,

I won't have an honest word to

say.

I'm afraid that I'm bound for

failure.

Cause the lights are so damn

bright.

I'm afraid that my soul is

greyer.

Guess I'll wonder with a broken

light.

Don't you see me now?

Am I happy now?

It seems to me, I can't possibly 

believe a thing, with chaos 

At me.

And I've seen stranger things,

with a mind unclean.

Aren't I happy

I'm afraid that I still like feeling,

more numb than the road I walk.

I'm afraid that I can't stop bleeding, 

on the fact I can't turn back the

clock.

I'm afraid that today is endless.

Am I doomed to repeat these hours?

I'm afraid that now I'm senseless,

and I'm just dirt among the flowers.

Don't you see me now?

Am I happy now?

It seems to me, I can't possibly 

believe a thing, with chaos

at me.

And I've seen stranger things,

with a mind unclean.

Aren't I Happy