Stuck In Here

Stuck In Here

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Chasing the damned thoughts

Out of my freakin' brain

Nobody knows why I think them

And I do not either

Hey hey

I used to know why I was thinkin' too much

Now I just sleep away right after lunch

I'll never know why I give a fuck

Just don't chase me

Until I break away

The noises all escape my brain

And "never" becomes a word I don't understand

And today

I may just falter

And run away

With no news about correction

I just can't fix my brain

So I will explode

And go to outer space

Putting a leash on my cat

And taking her for a walk

As Martians stab us, here and about

Bring about pain and strife

Just plain making us suffer

Nobody knows me like a bottle of pills

I'm not here to be killed

I just want to get my fill

Yet, I slip and fall

With no one to call

Can life be over?

Nobody could ever tell

Though I will shrink my own mind, myself

As I serve a sentence

That I slap myself with

And do time in self imprisonment

Making myself suffer

To correct my karma

And pay my dues for my wrongs

But it doesn't get any less crazy than that

My body just keeps getting fat

As I look back at my old self

When the screen saver comes on

And I see old pictures of me

Before I was sentenced to live in a tiny home

Where I filed bankruptcy

And got stuck in

Now the days drag on by

With nothing but sleep to look forward to

Only a pen and some paper to comfort me

When I'm too tired to pick up the guitar

And play

And with nothing on day time television

My bike needing repair

Traps me at home, in my despair

Even my friends on the 'phone

Having nothing to say after 30 minutes

And I fall silent as well

Flames burn me in this Hell

No water in this well

Nothing to recollect, that would ring a bell

I have no more soul to sell

Why would I want to anyways?

It's not something that could be understood

Not by me

Not by any one

Life's just not fun bein' locked up

But the world can never forgive me

In here, I am just stuck

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03-19-'21

D. L. Cannon