Chapter 36: (v.36) Together And Broken

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

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Chapter 35-

 

A'liyah- It took me ten minutes to get there, and by the time I did my feet were killing me. I had to sit down on the bench.  I took off my sandals and rubbed my feet but the pain wasn't trying to go away. I needed to tell my mom about my foot problems, because it was getting too much  to deal with. This park was so beautiful with the trees covering up the sun, so it wouldn't be in anyone's face. It didn't have a playground or anything like that, but it did have a water fountain and a roundabout thing you could ride on. It was so peaceful a- "Hey baby". I jumped and screamed. I turned around to see Colby laughing and a smile spread on my face. "I thought I told you not to give me a heart attack, I laughed. "I'm sorry, but I got here kind of early and I saw you sitting down". He came around sat down next to me. I don't know how he looked so good in whatever he wore, but he always seemed to pull everything off. He had on a grey shirt with black shorts that went to his kneecaps, and when I looked at his feet I saw he had slides on. I looked back up at him and his eyes caught mine. I swear everytime I looked into his eyes I instantly felt better. A slight breeze came through and whipped his curls around. I don't think he ever makes any effort for his hair to look like that. "All's, we need to talk" he says breaking me out of my daze. "Yeah we do". "Can I go first?". "Yeah of course". He blew out a deep breath. "All's you know I love you, and I care about you. "But It's like way more than that". "Since you came into my life it's been better. "Me and my sister have gotten along better, and I'm being a better person". "All's I know I've fought with you so many times, but baby you have to believe that I'm working on being a better person for you". 

 

 

It was like the wind got knocked out of me. These words were so touching and beautiful. But I knew that they weren't going to mean anything anymore. "Colby, it's so sweet and I love you so much, but I can't be with you anymore". "My mom, she wants me to break up with you, and Colby I have to do it". "Why do you listen to her A'liyah?". "You know what she's telling you is wrong". "Colby I know, but I have to listen to her, she's my mom". No matter what my mom told me, she was still my mom and I had to listen to what she said. "All's it's wrong for her to say you shouldn't be with me because I'm white". "I don't care what color you are, I love you for you". "All's you're so beautiful and kind and sweet, and you put up with my bullshit". "I know but we just can't, and my mom thinks you're only with me because you want to brag to other people that you're dating a black girl". His mouth opened wide and shut. "Are you serious, I don't care about what fucking color you are, I love you". The saddest thing about this was that I knew he didn't care about color. But my mom just couldn't see it. "Listen we can be friend- "No, hell no, All's I can't just be friends with you, I need you to be my girlfriend I don't want  it any other way". "Colby we just can't I'm sorry". I need to get up and walk away from here before I start crying. I love this boy way more than I can stand, and I don't want to look at his face and see the pain I caused him. I stand up but I feel him pull on my arm. "All's please, just listen to me". "Just let me tell you something, and if you want to leave you can I won't stop you I promise". I hesistantly sat back down and he looked at me with the saddest expression on his face. He blew out a deep breath and started to shake a little. 

 

 

"My dad was sick in the head. "He was mentally unstable sometimes, but most of the time he was a chill guy". "When I was little he would take me and Venus to the park and play with us, we would have the best times". "But when he had his episodes, he start yelling and breaking things around our house". "One day I went in the kitchen to get something to eat, when he saw me in there he took off his belt and hit me across my head and called me a bitch". "He hit me so hard I had a bruise, and when I told my mom she just said she would deal with it and don't tell anybody". "It got worse after that, he would just break down and hit me with whatever he could, sometimes giving me bruises. "He would do the same to Venus too". "My mom yelled at him and told him that she was going to call the police if he kept on doing it, so he slapped the shit out of her and gave her a black eye". "After that, she just stop bothering him, and she let him hit us". "She would keep me and Venus home from school, and I would miss so many days". "I missed so many that I failed the fifth grade and had to do it again". "I was so pissed off, and the kids at school made fun of me, my life was shit". "My mom felt bad about it so she took me to the lights place". "She would take me back there where the zoo area was, with lots of animals, it was the only time I felt happy". "Three years after Venus left, that one night is when he died". "I was sleep in my bed, and all I heard was my mom screaming downstairs. "I jumped out of my bed and ran down there to see what was wrong.

 

"Tears soaked her cheeks, and she wouldn't stop screaming". "she pulled me close to her and said "he's dead, he got killed". "I didn't know how to understand it, a part of me was sad that he was gone, but a bigger part of me was glad that he was dead so he couldn't hurt us anymore". "My mom wouldn't tell me how he died until a few months later. "She said he was walking around screaming nonsense around a bad neighborhood". "Somebody came up behind him and beat him in the head with a bat, then shot him in the head and killed him". 

 

I didn't realize that tears were rolling down my eyes until I reached up to stratch my face. Colby was broken, uttertly  broken by his parents that were supposed to love him and protect him. "A few days later I went out to get the mail, and I saw a letter from a physiciatric center, it had said that they had done an evaluation on his brain and saw that he had gray matter tissue, that hits a nerve". "They told him to come in a few months before he had died, to get a scan done but he didn't". "I asked my mom about it an she told me that she didn't want those people hurting him, or messing his head up, he would've just been better at home where she could see about him". "I lost it, I told her what a selfish person she was, and how she didn't protect us". "If she had have just tooken him to that center he could've got the help he needed", and he could've gotten better but it was all her fault". "Now she just wants to hug on me, and have a relationship with me, always telling me to do better with my life, better than what she did". "But it's all bullshit, she and my dad are the reason that I'm like I am". 



"Colby, you can't just blame your mom for that, it wasn't her fault". "Yes it was All's if she had have tooken him to that center he wouldn't have died". My heart shattered for him, he had been through so much. "She should've protected me, but instead she fucking let him do that to me". "Colby you have to forgive your mom, it sounds like she's really tying with you". "Fuck no, I'll never forgive her", I wish she was dead". "Don't say stuff like that, that's a terrible thing to say about someone". "It's the truth, I fucking failed the fifth grade twice because of her". "I never got to have a normal life because of what he did". "This is exactly why I need you All's, I need you to make it better", I'm better when I'm around you baby". 

 

"Colby I love you more than I can stand, but this will never work. "My mom will never let us, and aside from that I can't keep fighting with you, everytime you turn around". I loved him, and felt so sorry for what he went through, but I can't handle getting into these fights with him, and cryin my eyes later. "I promise that I'll do better with you, I won't fight with you, I'll do better for you just please his voice broke. "I can't keep doing this by myself, I- Tears started rolling down his cheeks. I scooted over to him and hugged him. Suprised he grabbed me and pulled me on top of him. He rubbed his fingers gently over my face. "Baby, I need you, you make me so fucking happy, and I swear I'll be better if you just stay with me". And with that he brought my face down to his and kissed me.


Submitted: June 03, 2021

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