Friends and Guys I Lost = What

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Memoir  |  House: Booksie Classic

Sorting out old friends, taking care of *you* first.

From Corey to Jesse and Shannon, Stef to Lisa, they were plucked from my life one by one. They are evidently my past and/or negative forces I shouldn’t have around. Looking back at my memories of hanging out, there was a lot of drama in one way or another. There was always some kind of a problem, left undiscussed lingering over us, and I guess it blew up. 
 
They say people come and go from your life as they’re needed and while I’m bad at letting go, maybe that’s true and I need to accept that a lot of people may have time limits in my life and things go sour once it’s tried to force it. Not that I’m trying to make excuses for anyone’s behavior. 
 
My happiness comes from within me, firstly.  Once I love myself, and I finally do, I feel more things are possible. I feel I can give more of myself and even love more than before. 
 
Self-care is key to happiness. Self-care can be a bubble bath to reading a book for leisure or going to bed early for more rest. It can also be saying the word “no” to other, possibly pushy, people and feeling empowered. 
 
Taking care of myself with routine is also important. Writing in different journals helps me release, manifest, and work on my self-esteem. These aid me in routine, along with my crystals, which are also great for wearing as a tool to aide you and your intentions. Incense and meditation are great self-care methods, too. 
 
I’m not all alone, though. The good news is that as old people from your life leave (a couple are still here), new people will come. As the old have gone, I’ve changed. Who knows if they’d like this version of me. Who knows if this version of me would like them ... and who knows how some of those people from the past are acting these days. The world and the people in it are constantly changing, developing, cycling, and sometimes things manage to stay the same. ????  
 
The cycle is what makes everything go - nature is amazing. I should look more often to nature for lessons in life. I’m sure she has all the answers. Life is a cycle as well. My life sure is. I must let go of what no longer serves me. That part of my live, of the cycle in my life, is over. And I need to tell myself that that’s okay, because it is. “It was beautiful while it lasted, now we are past it, to the next chapter, there’s still a happily ever after.” 
 
 
 

 


Submitted: June 02, 2021

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