Another One Bites the Dust

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Memoir  |  House: Booksie Classic

The end of a friendship, politics end another one.

I met Lisa NYE night in 2011 at my parents’ house, as she dated Justin at the time (poor her) and he was friends with Kristina and back then I felt the more the merrier. 
 
It started with a comment on an Inauguration post. All these years I thought things were fantastic, except little mentions of Justin obsessing over me, even while they dated. Even up until last year, I was learning things he lied about me to her and now I’m starting to wonder what else did he say and what had she thought about me this whole time? What have people like Kristina and Maryanne, who I met her through, and talk badly about everyone else, what have they said to her about me? I met Justin four times max and Maryanne like twice in my life, so it’s ridiculous.
 
Suddenly, it’s Inauguration Day 2021 and I have sad parents, two friends literally crying over the FRAUDULENT presidency alone and I was trying to be optimistic for everyone. I did post a “this fraud of an inauguration” type of post and said “a sad day” and Lisa posted on it, “I loved it, sorry.”
 
This is off, because Lisa never gets involved in politics like me, she never seems to care to post or comment about it, so why now? Secondly, she knew I was a big Trump supporter, so why say that it was something positive to *me* of all people, when of course I’m not going to agree? The first thing to my mind was wondering if she wanted to be bitchy towards me for some reason? I’ve heard her and her statements with “sorry” before and it’s often sarcastic and I felt it was in this manner. I did write her to question her, because wondering and assuming things never leads to any good. I still felt things were off, even after we talked the next day at my hair, it just got weirder. 
 
She brought politics up four times at my hair appointment, but ultimately said they shouldn’t matter to people - which I agree. Nothing else really occurred until recently, but again, mostly coming down to politics. 
 
Eventually, I figured out Lisa had not interacted with me on Facebook since  before January 6th, 2021, which was a big political day. I don’t know if the exact day was a coincidence, but I knew Lisa had blocked my feed over politics (after all these years of me being political), so I wrote her to ask her - and she denied it. This made me mad, but it’s not like I could prove it. I just knew she was a talkative on Facebook with everyone else, but was acting differently with me - had disappeared with me. The worst part was that I was preparing for brain surgery, the worst of all my surgeries, and I admit I was worried, and she was not up-to-date in my life and I couldn’t understand why not, because I don’t say as much on Instagram. 
 
Going on at the same time, since early January, I noticed Lisa befriended Stephanie P’s sister, Niki A. This bothered me, I think only fairly, if we were really so close, because this was enemy territory and I don’t have time to let such negativity into my life. It’s bad enough she already had two negative people she’s close to, so now she is collecting more... not that I was going to tell her who to hang out with, but I was mad. 
 
Well, things came crashing down for watching her actions on Facebook on Mariah Carey’s anniversary of 3/27 and I decided I didn’t need lying friends around. I was having major surgery and she was oblivious anyway, so I deleted Lisa from Facebook and Instagram - who knows how long it took her to notice. Awhile later, her husband follows my art Instagram, the games. 
 
That’s probably when she noticed. And I didn’t want her to think it was all over Niki, even if I do think it’s wrong, like how would she like me befriending her ex friend, Danielle, or someone she loves getting close to Justin now. 
 
Anyway, through text messages I let Lisa know I felt like a client, never a friend - and I have a list of reasons. She responded and I learned I was just being “weird,” even though she admitted lying this whole time and I was right about her blocking my feed over politics (she should have came to me and discussed it, MATURELY), ... because I learned I’m hateful. But I’m not hateful, I would have handled things maturely if she came to me at the time, or apologized now and opened up, but no, ego? She changed. Or, she really never cared. 
 
Now I question everything. Was she as cool as she seemed? About Justin and his psycho lies about me? Most girls would have hated me, because of him and his lies. They wouldn’t behave been able to help it. And what are the odds Maryanne and even Kristina didn’t talk crap to Lisa? They do about and to everyone else, ha. 
 
So, looking back, what have I lost? I learned my hair was always mediocre and we never once hung out, besides our meeting. Don’t let people give you smoke and mirrors. It only lasts so long, anyways. If you dislike who they keep by their side, that’s a good indication of who they are if that’s who they enjoy to keep around all the time. So lying aside, enough said. 
 
 
 
 

 


Submitted: June 02, 2021

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