So Where The Fuck Is She?
-
Scrambling my brains into an omelet
I wonder, still, "who is to eat it?"
I sit around, pen in hand
Lost the world, I'm not a man
No woman I ever lost would ever want me back
And the women I got rid of
__I never needed to begin with
The sorrowful world
It shrinks and then grows
There's nobody, whom I can hold
I scream in horror
I drown in pain
It's all my fault
I can't go on
My life's ripped up
I can't live on
With a world of shame
__shattered into pieces
Love falls on the ground
And without a word
It makes no sound
Thee empty hours don't tick and talk anymore
I've lost my grip on love's door
It will not open
__"oh, what a world!"
But I won't die here, all for nothing, yet
It's just that all The Powers That Be
Cannot bring love back to me
And looking in the trash
__for some kind of sign
Sure don't help
__me get out of my mind
I'm trapped inside a head that's dead
And I've fallen by the way-side
I do that again and again
I live, milking the rats
Since that's all the milk
__that I can have
Mortified time
Destructed tomorrows
Self-obliterated worlds
And self-imprisonment
I can be the subject
I lose whatever I get
I can't see the signs
But I know they don't point to "yes"
I'l forever remember the noise in my head
As they blare at full volume
__just trying ta kill me, dead
But the truth is nowhere to be found
I could not care for crying clowns
With their sad faces, all around
And bubbles of sound
__I will pop with a pin
I walk around, for hours on end
Not knowing when the beginning ends
When this disaster
Comes and destroys us all
I'll remain undisturbed
__by a woman's love
And be able to buy myself
__whatever I want
But self-pleasure ain"t ev'rything
It's just better than the gold-digging bitches
That, in my past, have clung onto me
Where ever they've gone, I do not care
I want a woman who's not after my money
Call it "selfishness"
Call it
__maybe
____"indifference to a woman's wants"
They are not needs
__so what the fuck!
But I can't crawl out of bed alone
So one of these days I'm gonna have to fold
But I can't be bothered with
__a woman's shopping list
Not right now
I'm still shopping, myself
It's not like a woman in the world
__wants me right now anyhow
So I can't complain
__about where my money's going
I just can't stand the lack of love
That comes with the lack of a relationship
Where the lack of intimate moments
Damage my existence
And puts me out of life's bonus
Called "intimacy"
That I seem to no longer be experiencing
-
06-02-'21 #2
D. L. Cannon
Submitted: June 03, 2021
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