Exposed

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Memoir  |  House: Booksie Classic

My thoughts deceive me. They expose me, and they reveal me. It is the world within me that was my sanctuary, but no more. I have betrayed the being that exists inside of me, thrashing and thriving through my mind and soul, devouring my every thought and my every memory. Yearning to be released, yet afraid to see the light.

EXPOSED

By Al Garcia

My thoughts deceive me.  They expose me, and they reveal me.  It is the world within me that was my sanctuary, but no more.  I have betrayed the being that exists inside of me, thrashing and thriving through my mind and soul, devouring my every thought and my every memory.  Yearning to be released, yet afraid to see the light. 

It has taken me a lifetime to conceal my inner self, and only a momentary lapse to bare my heart and soul.  I am conflicted by the feeling of release and by the sense of the duplicity of my own design.  Why can others keep their thoughts and memories secret in the recesses of their mind, while my weakness, pain and suffering is clear for all to see?  It is as if I opened the window to my soul, and the light is shining in, and all can now see the man that is me, and not the man I have been, or want you to see. 

My thoughts exposed me and betrayed me.  You see the unvarnished and unfinished me.  I am a work in progress, still searching, still seeking, almost complete, but not yet finished.  The security of my façade no longer shields me from the world that keeps testing me, goading me, provoking me, to expose the truths that best be left unsaid or undone, for fear of offending or upsetting the few or the many. 

But now that I have been exposed and revealed, I see no need to pretend to be the person I never was.  For the revelation of my unraveling thoughts has unburdened my heavy heart and refreshed my faith in the man I truly am – a simple man, with simple thoughts, who has led a simple life.  But now, unlike before, I no longer have to hide my dreams, my memories or my thoughts.  For I have found the courage and nerve to revel in the man l was meant to be – ME, and no one else inside of me. 


Submitted: June 11, 2021

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