LOST IN MYSELF

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic


 

LOST IN MYSELF




 

Drowning into a dark sea,

Under a dark sky

 

No one's gonna save me,

No one’s gonna try

 

Still I feel so betrayed 

Broken from inside

 

Angry with myself 

As the water becomes quite

 

 

Is this heaven?

This endless vanity

 

So is this sanity?

This cold cruelty

 

I want to cry louder,

But wimp in silence

 

 

The harshness of the wind

Is just to keep this ignorance

 

Trying to understand,

Is this dirt, I've in me

 

Trying to ignore

Maybe it’s the way I see 

 

This is reality?

This fetishized inhumanity

 

So this is sanity?

Just a mindless morality

 

Not understanding

Why it’s so hard to understand

 

 

No emotion on any face.

No place to stand


 

I'm the one to blame for trying to pretend

Not knowing what I want and what I intend

I don't know what I want, can't want what I do

More I try to run, more I sink into the blue

 

 

Am I wise now?

A renamed taint

 

Am I now a saint?

So there’s no escape

 

I know what to do,

There is no reason to try

 

 

In this cold darkness,

We’re swimming in a lie

 

Unable to see over the surface, anything beyond the next

Unable to find a purpose, I am still lost in myself


 


Submitted: June 23, 2021

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Archia

Great poem, I felt like it really had a lot of depth to it and the emotions that came through it were so strong. All the allusions to water really added a lot to it too.

Thu, June 24th, 2021 7:48am

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Thank you for reading

Thu, July 1st, 2021 8:01am

Aquarius

Thank you for sharing your gift with us. It's very good indeed and I am looking forward to hearing more of your writing efforts.

With love - Aquarius

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Mon, June 28th, 2021 1:32pm

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Thank you so much for reading my work

Thu, July 1st, 2021 8:00am

uduak

Nice poem,maria.

Thu, July 1st, 2021 4:28pm

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Thanks

Thu, July 1st, 2021 10:12am

Ann Sepino

The dark tone of this poem is spot on. I love the lines the depict how the speaker second-guesses themselves. It truly shows how lost in their thoughts or existence they are. Great job!

Wed, July 7th, 2021 12:03am

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thank you for reading.

Wed, July 7th, 2021 10:31pm

Aquarius

That's a very fine poem. Thank you for sharing your feelings with us in this way.

I am looking forward to more of your writing efforts.

With love - Aquarius

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Fri, July 9th, 2021 1:45pm

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thank you, i am happy that you enjoyed it

Mon, July 12th, 2021 12:40am

poetshri

Strong emotions, I can feel the frustration and pain here. Thanks for sharing.

Wed, July 21st, 2021 6:39pm

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thank you for reading

Mon, July 26th, 2021 12:26am

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