How I Perceive Myself Vs How Others Perceive Me

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Non-Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

I was told I should write what I thought and think of myself and the environment into which I was born and what I know others thought and perceived about me (for they said it outright) and how unethical people in my own Government thought of me and their vested Interests.

 

Inner Perception of Myself Vs. What People See

 

By Alexander Guinevere Kern

 

7-14-2021

 

I live in a Phantasmagoria of Bedazzled Admiration of the World & The Universe around me, and the color wonderful creative manifestations of God Mind in myself and others, Utterly in love with it all. I came from Love. Earth is a miracle, pure Goodness! All so worthy of worship and excitement! I am a fan of everything!!  I am on to Adventure! I’m an innocent, protected girl Soul with an Admiring Mind! I am SO creative, with SO many ideas for my future! I love God, acting, writing, Singing in Choir, dancing and art!!!!  I'm a straight A student. All my teachers love me and approve of my Life Plan Adventure on the Earth Experiential Program. Everyone in my family was all lined up to help me become a good writer of Mystery stories and a solid painter of portraits of my family and clients! I LOVE everyone and everything!

 

Other people:  She is a fit but relatively stupid, lame, sort of attractive, but not really, woman who has no family back up, so it is clear she must have done something to alienate her own bloodline family. She could not keep her marriages together. (Note: three of the four left me and our children for other women.) Kind of a nerdy squirrel with some artistic ability and in the arts.“She’s had three marriages that’s failed, hon.” (Cindy Schriefer, on her 3rd husband.) She had three kids by three different men. She is unimpressive in bed, low class, trailer trash, (My ex said I reminded him of Tanya Harding!) Gwen is Immoral, unethical, “You’ve Lived Balls to the Wall and I don’t god damn trust you.” (Ex-husband George). (Note: I lived “balls to the wall” because none of the Daddy’s paid Child Support OR alimony.) She is nothing but a High School graduate. (My Mother told me I was too stupid to go to college and she was not going to waste her money on me. I made all As and Bs and a D in Algebra II.) I later earned a 4.0 in Criminal Justice.

 

All the new wives of ex-husbands called me “Whore, Slut, Slag, Adulteress, Bigamist, a Liar,” (Note: I went years in between divorces NOT sleeping with any men. These are the Immoral, Low Class, Uneducated Trash Women who had affairs with my husbands! I think their “intentions were clear.) She got lucky with her fourth husband but he ditched her when he found out she was mental and got himself a College-educated beauty 20 years his junior.” A disgusting single parent with no hope for a financial future or career success. I hate those women, we always end up supporting them with our taxes. Note: (No one supported me. I paid for my education, my children’s education, I received NO AFDC, Welfare, etc. even when I qualified I was told I did not!)  She’s barely Fuc*-able but that’s it.

 

And they said it to my face.

 

What my People In My Own Government Thought Of The Worth Of Me:

 

She has No husband or boyfriend or friends anymore, her kids are grown and live in other states, she has no money, no social support from friends or family. Her income is negligable. She’ll be a drain on SSDI support possibly for forty years. She is no longer attractive, another single, lonely, desperate, poverty-stricken divorcee Spinster who was supposed to be dying young in her 40s. She is still possibly Useful for Experimentation and extraction of her Entity’s Family Light Frequency for our own men and women in our Dark Dimension. She’ll be tortured, raped, Mind Controlled, deceived, brutalized, and is to be murdered when our  experimentation upon her Brain and Soul is complete. We deem this perfectly acceptable treatment of a fellow American who paid taxes for 40 years, for in the eyes of our many Government employees, our ex-Military men and their wives, various vested Interests, government contractors and others, our fellow tormentors might be attracted to our new product line, by demonstrating how well their Mind Control worked on a human brain. We can make a human computer out of her, There is nothing she can do about it. She is ill and alone and poor and can barely move from her bed. We rotted out her teeth over a 2 1/2 years time period to keep her in place so we could keep experimenting, even when she died and had several Near Death Experiences and saw these American men and their dull wives had been doing this to me and others for a long time -  the radiation caused total devastation of my teeth, the one medical issue not covered by Medicare and hospital ERs and not even my Primary physician couldn't treat so many teeth decaying at such a rapid rate)  and then their abuses of my mind, brain body and Soul sent my inherited hypertension into the Death Range, 280/160They raped me hundreds of times. They allowed Mr. Alan Cameron to tear out my entire program system and still make appeal for my energy countless times before that.

 

"Her idiotic human will not survive and if she does, we will make sure her diagnosis renders her testimony not credible."

 

Every word of this is true.


Submitted: July 15, 2021

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LE. Berry

Interesting.

Fri, July 16th, 2021 9:26pm

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