Chapter 2: I'm Not Crazy (Stella)

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Science Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

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The car ride home was quiet, as it always was. Mom and Dad would talk so quickly to themselves, I'd barely be able to pick up on a single thing they said. The first time we'd come here, I was ten years old, I could remember our first time in the car, driving home, from being at the facility. Mom had been so upset, she didn't stop crying the whole way back home. And even when we finally made it, she ran up to her room. Dad and I hadn't seen her for the rest of the night. Though she tried to make a small appearance the next morning, by sneaking into my room, asking me that same annoying question, she always did. 

''Think your okay to start school, honey?'' Same tone, same pitch, same everything. Need I remind you, you were the who forced me from school, the second you thought I was mentally insane, I snapped in the back of my mind. 

''Do you really think she's ready for that, dear?'' Dad asked, covering his voice, as he lowered his mouth, hopeful that I wasn't listening, though my fresh sigh pretty much told him everything he needed to know, because he turned to look at me. I was sitting in the middle seat, as I always did, since our second visit, when they both realized I wasn't going to get better. Mom thought it was better for me to sit in the middle, so they could see my eyes in the rear view mirror. I was fine, I kept telling them I was, but just like everything else, they refused to listen to what I wanted. 

''I told you both before,'' I started. ''I'm fine to go to school. I told you that right from the beginning when you took me out in the first place!'' I barked, slouching in my seat, my arms still crossed, even now. The fluffy material of the car seats, pressing against my back. Even with the strong fabric of my coloured sweater, I could feel the softness of the seat, still trying to get to me. ''Maybe,'' I heard dad whisper, but it was louder, it was as if he truly mean't for me to be included. ''We should give her a chance, Martha,'' he said, using my mother's first name. Mom turned to look at him, but only for a second, as her eyes returned back on the road. I could see the light changing from green to red, indicating she wasn't going to be able to ignore him this time. With a deep and long - drawn sigh she seemed to be prepared for a lengthy and long conversation, though I could intercept that she didn't want to do this. So with another drawn sign, she collected her breath and her thoughts and nodded. ''All right, hon, she nodded. ''You may return to school. You're father and I will have to start preparing tonight, we've already had this in the works for a couple months now, but I just never revisited the topic till now.'' From the way she spoke, the way she'd given in I felt the edge of a blade behind her voice, telling me that she wasn't clearly having problems taking the fault, when in reality it was her fault. Something I've noticed about my human mother, was she never liked to come clean about something, in other words, she never wanted to admit when something was her fault. 

''Finally, very good, my darling.'' Dad said, a smile on his face, as he placed his hand, on top hers. I didn't know I was rolling my eyes, until my vision went foggy, but only for a moment, as I shifted back into my seat, finally allowing my arms to drop from my chest, they were raw to the point of breaking, but until someone believed me, trusted me, I vowed no one would ever see me, unless I was in that position. Now, as I'm realizing the pain, that might've been dump on my part. I grunted under my breath, my stupidity was rather fresh this morning, I'd have to come up with another way, another way to truly make them see. I wasn't insane. I knew what I was talking about. I was hurting. How I wished someone else truly could understand. 

They always think your mental or insane, when describing something they can't picture. 


Submitted: November 06, 2021

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