Total Stranger DCP Ver.

The Tumultuous Tale of a Total Stranger Double Condensed Poetic Ver.

Wednesday, November 10, 2021 7:27 pm

A double condensed version of my helpless ramblings 

Here I am 

Still fighting flooding eyes

Still shaking from the pain

As hours later I realize 

What exactly I became

I unknowingly wrote 

In the place where she used to be

In the darkness of her shadow 

You never could see me

You reminded her of your love

But confessed it to me

When I tried to decline 

You did not accept my apology 

I wasn’t apologizing 

She was

But I never new

I sat by the waters of the port

Without so much as a clue

I wrote 

In the morning 

In the noon

In the night

Beneath the moon

You tried to understand 

I took comfort in your kindness 

The things we hadn’t told each other 

At last came to light

And something you alluded to

Didn’t sit quite right

In an instant it became clear

I was never the one you held most dear

I was never the one in your sight

I was not the woman you were thinking of

I was never intended to receive your love

Remorseful tears shed for not

Heartfelt apologies said for not 

Months of pain & months of self-blame spent for not

All of my anguish was for not

Where do I stand?

 I feel like a thief

A fool 

And a child

I am all of those things

But even at best

I am something else

Something even less

I am a total stranger

You know me from nowhere 

And no one 

What else is there to say? 

I’m just a total stranger

Back in to the moving crowds

I will simply fade away