Late night venting through writing.

What keeps me sane and keeps me whole?

I’m nothing but a vintage soul.

I bleed the love and write the pain,

The tears that drip: never in vain.


A poet’s heart, a troubled mind,

A past that hasn’t been so kind.

A bit dramatic”, those label me,

And I’ve embraced reluctantly.


To sever ties is what I yearn,

But to not love, I’ll never learn.

This pen I use to make some sense,

The hurt I feel is so immense.


A pain that’s wicked and very old,

An impaired heart I’m meant to hold.

This sense of loss; as old as time,

A vintaged grief detailed in rhyme.


And as I write my hand does cramp,

Depression comes and leaves a stamp.

A sweet reminder, a gentle nudge,

The demons say: “We’ll never budge”.


And as I ponder, I have reckoned,

These thoughts don’t leave not for a second.

They never do, they’re present still,

Another bottle, another pill.


These dreadful lines are all I see,

My heart will be the death of me.

Submitted: October 24, 2022

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Adam L.

I have not read a poem of yours this personal in a long time. The best poems come out when we're in the bottom of the pit and in the middle of the night. Sweet Lis, as cathartic and simply beautiful these lines are, I pray you rise and feel better.

Mon, October 24th, 2022 4:04pm


Thank you, dear Adam, I appreciate the kindness and the care.

Mon, October 24th, 2022 9:12am

Michael Chad Cleary

I was most intrigued by the choice to go with two lines for the last statement. It was as though your heart simply ran out of words. I think that is a very vivid way to convey to the reader the exhausting emotion felt by the writer. It's a rare thing to be able to do that in my opinion. Very heartfelt.

Mon, October 24th, 2022 5:03pm


Thank you so much, my dear friend. As I wrote this on Saturday night at 3am, I did give up at some point, I felt like if I didn't end it right then and there, the poem was just going to turn into something else. So I just wrote an additional poem after that. I wish I felt better, but at least writing it down, makes it therapeutic, if that makes sense. I appreciate you reading.

Mon, October 24th, 2022 10:06am

Mike Stevens

Another fine poem, JB, and yes, writing helps, somehow

Mon, October 24th, 2022 6:09pm


Thank you, Mike, it does help

Mon, October 24th, 2022 11:52am

olive tree

Damn. Keep doing whatever you're doing!

Mon, October 24th, 2022 7:54pm


Thank you, my friend. For some reason good-old handwriting at 3am about your woes is just as honest as you can get.

Tue, October 25th, 2022 8:41am


The night brings us dreams, but most of the time, the dream is the nightmare, and the nightmare is the dream. Your mind is different at night, and those sleepness nights are not kind. Sometimes just writing at that time of the night is important, because when you wake up, those words will be long gone. Our demons will always invade at any moment, and it is hard to shut them out. Instead of letting the demons write the words for you, find it in your heart to write them yourself. Very personal Lisbeth. Hope in the morning, you rise like a sunrise, and see blue skies. Great wording and rhyming again. Excellent work.

Mon, October 24th, 2022 8:27pm


Thank you, my dearest friend. Your words were definitely a beacon of hope. It's frustrating to be made to feel like you are wrong for demanding to be taken seriously.

Tue, October 25th, 2022 8:35am


This is very well crafted, beautifully and meaningfully written. It's amazing how we can hold on to pain indefinitely and yet the positive experience and their memory seems so fleeting. I hope writing serves to help you work through these emotions, experiences and memories.

Sat, October 29th, 2022 7:45pm


I am honored, thank you dearest Kate, your comment was like a virtual hug.

Tue, November 1st, 2022 9:06am

Raven Akuma

This is such a beautiful poem, I'm still amazed you can put such a harrowing and crippling state of mind into words. It's certainly a reminder that poetry is a form of art and expression, and as with any form of those things, it can also be a cure. And you, Jaylisbeth, certainly have a very talented hand. Incredible work, here :)

Sun, October 30th, 2022 5:38pm


Thank you so much! I am happy you think so, that means a lot to me coming from you.

Tue, November 1st, 2022 9:09am


That's lovely - I'm delighted that it landed that way.

Tue, November 1st, 2022 5:26pm

En Raiter

Whew some poetry is like being in an elevator, which is good it can take you up and down, but there are some of this tribe gifted with the pen that makes one feel as if it is more apt to describe it as being on a wonkavator.

"The Wonkavator can go Sideways and Slantways, long ways, back ways, and square ways and any other ways you can think of."

The Poets rips themselves apart but oh what a beautiful sound that shredding makes to the ears of those that can hear the tree fall in the forest. We don't split silently, you Poetess timber graciously.

Thu, November 10th, 2022 12:17am


You have touched my heart. Such a heartwarming message. Thank you, my friend.

Tue, November 29th, 2022 9:37am


To touch a heart, they say, divine!
So you, my Dear, a heavenly sign ~
Lonely, sad, dejected sometimes...
You still rule the world w/your rhymes!

Sat, December 17th, 2022 2:41pm

don bryant

I have just read your poem for the third time, and am so stunned by it, I haven't moved. As someone prone to depression, I absorbed your desperate words like a dry sponge. The impaired heart line really resonated with me; never thinking it will work properly again, or provide the comforts that only a pure heart can. So often our hearts are damaged through no fault of our own-- because we dared to love and trust, when others may not have ventured that far out where they were vulnerable. As I once wrote in a story "when hearts get shattered, you can never find all the pieces, no matter how hard you look for them. They are never whole again, and neither are you." A similar premise, as you can see. Your closing line astounded me--that your ?? will be the death of you someday. I have often felt the same way about mine.
Thank you for writing this, and I sincerely hope it helps your wounds close up faster. You really touched me with this. You projected your state of mind onto the reader, which only an extremely talented writer is capable of doing. And you are. Thanks again, it really helped. Happy New Year!

Tue, January 10th, 2023 5:51am

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