I looked across the lunch hall and saw his face. His eyes were shining with excitement, he was laughing at something Jake, his friend, had just told him. Suddenly his eyes shift and I see him staring at her, does he know that as he is staring at her I’m staring at him? Well I was very sure that I wasn’t the first one experiencing this, this feeling. You know the feeling where you love someone but that someone doesn’t love you back?
The feeling when I look at him and tell myself “I love him, but he doesn’t feel the same. We’re just friends.”
And the fact that he looks at her and loves her doesn’t make me feel any better. It hurts, hurts bad. I love everything about him, I know everything about him, even that what he hasn't told anyone, but still he loves her, I'm just his best friend. I've used all my wishes, asking, begging for him but to no avail. Some times I just feel like telling him the truth, telling him how I feel, but in the end I give up, It's so darn confusing!
I know it’s confusing, and when someone asks me, what’s wrong or why don’t you just do it, I reply, “It’s complicated.”. And the fact that my eyes fill up with tears when I see him looking at her doesn’t help either.
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