Chapter 6:

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Non-Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

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Dear Diary,
I thought I would write about Mason this time.  I love him very, very much.  I wish I could live with him, and be with him every day and every night.  He makes me feel safe.  Like nothing can hurt me when I am in his arms.  I love sleeping beside him because I know he won’t let anything get to me, and he always wakes me up if he thinks I’m having a bad dream.  He really is a perfect guy, and he makes everything alright.  Tuesday I get to see him for the day.  That will be so much fun!  Every time that I see him, nothing is wrong.  It’s just him and I, and the wonderful sun.  He always makes everything worth while!
Mason has a disease called ulcerative colitis.  This is really hard on me because he has surgeries and lots of doctor’s appointments.  Plus, it reminds me a lot of when Katie was sick.  Mason has to have three surgeries.  I wasn’t dating him when he had his first, but I was when he had his second.  Gosh, that was so hard.  I think I broke down twenty times that day, and throughout the week he was in the hospital.  
Mason is my first real love, my first true love.  He’s the third guy I have kissed.  I have to be honest though.  Mason changed me.  I used to be a goody girl.  Now I’ve lost my virginity to him.  I don’t regret the things I have done, but I know if we were to break up, I would regret doing that with him.  Besides that Mason hasn’t changed me at all.
Mason is a lot like me.  He has a colorful personality, and he has blonde moments just like me.  We always make each other laugh, and we finish each others sentences.  Something we do a lot, is we often end up saying I love you at the same exact time.  Once we were both looking at our old messages on our phone, and we both hummed the same exact thing at the same time.  That made us laugh really hard.  
Doesn’t that make us perfect for each other?  It does seem like we are absolutely perfect.  But what’s hard is that I have pinky swore to him that I would never ever leave him.  (A pinky swear is seriously a big deal to me.  Don’t laugh!)  He has not been able to promise the same to me, and he has come close to breaking up with me before.  That really hurts when that happens.  I can’t even explain it.  
I have a problem though.  A HUGE problem.  Mason had talked me into having sex while I had my monthly (ew.) without a condom.  He kept telling me that there was no chance that I could get pregnant.  I wasn’t so sure so I told him that he still had to pull out when he knew he was going to finish.  I asked him afterwards, to make sure, if he had pulled out in time, and he said yes.  
Now it is about 3 weeks after, and he is saying he isn’t sure if he pulled out in time.  I haven’t had any symptoms, but then again I don’t know any of the symptoms.  Besides morning sickness, and gaining weight.  I haven’t been nauseated, and I’ve actually been losing weight.  I’m just hoping that I get my monthly soon that way we won’t have to worry about that anymore.  A part of me is extremely scared that I could be.  
I wouldn’t know how to tell my parents.  The only good thing would be that I would be able to move out when I was seventeen then, and my birthday is in November.  I know I would be a good mom, but I still don’t think I’m ready to be a mom.  Mason said that if I was pregnant he would not leave me, and he would take care of the baby with me.  That is kind of reassuring.  The hardest part would be telling my family, when they still think I’m the good girl that I used to be.  I don’t want them to look at me differently because I am still the same girl.  
Changing the subject now, my mom has to bartend tonight when she got completely wasted yesterday.  I feel bad that she has to.  Dad’s going to go out tonight again.  At least he is making supper tonight.  We are having pancakes.  
You know, sometimes my dad isn’t all that bad.  When I was really sick, he wanted to take me to the hospital.  Sometimes I think my mom is worse than him.  I think he goes to the club to keep an eye on mom.  Although mom always says he drinks more.  Lately I’ve been seeing mom come home drunk, and him being sober.  I wish I could figure this all out diary.  Maybe my dad is on my side, and maybe he isn’t.  Hopefully my reality will sort itself out, and become clear to me.  No matter what, I’ll never lose hope in them, and I will never say I hate them, because they are my parents.  And as their only daughter left, I will try to help them.  
Oh yeah diary!  The fourth of July is coming soon, and my cousin Robin will be coming home, and visiting me!  I am really excited to see her.  She’s always been there for me.  She was my babysitter since I was two months old.  Also, my other cousin, G will be coming home soon from training in the military.  I am also excited for him to get home!  I am planning on spending the fourth of July with Mason and watching fireworks with him.  It will be our first time together on the fourth of July.  I think it will be really romantic and sweet.  I am really excited.  Stuff is really starting to look better diary.  But don’t worry, I won’t forget about you.  I’ll tell you all my great stories.  You’re becoming a friend to me diary.  That may sound a little weird since you’re a diary, but its true!  
Well, I have to go eat supper now, but I will try and write later!  Thank you like always for listening.  You are a very big help to me.  Goodbye for now!  

Love,Sunday, June 27th, 2010.  5:01 pm
Abigail


Submitted: June 27, 2010

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Rumor

Oh, my. If she's pregnant, she would be in a bit of trouble, wouldn't she? And is her dad actually better, or is it a tease? :P

Sun, June 27th, 2010 3:01pm

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I'm not quite sure yet. We will definitely see though :) A lot a lot a lot of trouble, but she doesn't know if she is yet. Thank you for commenting! :)

Sun, June 27th, 2010 8:08am

KineticEnergy

This entire diary, is well written and beautifully told. Keep me updated!

Sun, June 27th, 2010 4:22pm

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Thanks so much! I definitely will :)

Sun, June 27th, 2010 9:28am

SportzFreak

Oh wow, some parts are pretty sweet though. I like Mason. :)

Sun, June 27th, 2010 4:32pm

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Haha. I like him too :) I'm glad you like it. Thanks for commenting! :)

Sun, June 27th, 2010 9:35am

therealmerock

Woww... i really enjoy reading this :D
i love they way you writte & u just won another fan :)
congrats girl (:
keep me updated please? (:

Sun, June 27th, 2010 5:41pm

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Thank you so much :) I will definitely keep you updated. Yay I'm so excited! All these comments make me smile every time :) I'm so glad that you like it! Thanks soooooo very much for commenting, it means a lot to me! :)

Sun, June 27th, 2010 10:43am

Brii Morris

Oh, I wonder whether or not she's going to be pregnant! Excited to see what comes next!
And... is it possible... is her dad... changing?!
I wonder!
Update me please!
;D

Sun, June 27th, 2010 5:56pm

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I will definitely update you! :) Thank you so much for being a great fan and commenting! You are amazing :)

Sun, June 27th, 2010 12:08pm

AmassingFragrance

The entire work is sweetly written with ups and downs with equal focus. The uncertainty of a teenager brought about carefully. Look forward to reading more. Keep me updated, please.
Thanks,
Hav a nyc day,
FRAGRANCE

PS . I doubt Mason though..:P

Sun, June 27th, 2010 11:08pm

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Awww no! But you never know. Mason could be more than just a high school sweet heart :-p lol. Thank you for reading! I am glad you enjoy it. I am trying really hard to equalize it and I'm glad you noticed! :) I will surely keep you updated. :) You better have a nice day too! :) Thanks again!

Sun, June 27th, 2010 4:11pm

sweet angel

amazin'......but...but...she's only 17!!!! :) keep me updated dear, n I love poor girl.

Mon, June 28th, 2010 1:16am

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I will! Thank you soooooooo much :) That means a lot! (shes actually 16 though)

Mon, June 28th, 2010 12:22am

dantana

so she could be having a baby? wow. her dad seems to be changing a little in a way :)

Mon, June 28th, 2010 8:41pm

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Yep :) Thank you for commenting! It always means a lot!

Tue, June 29th, 2010 4:53am

JMorgan0500

Great job with the upbeat! And this worked out great. You really don't skimp on the details...;) Anyway much better and keep up the good work!

Tue, June 29th, 2010 11:24am

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Thanks soooo much! I'm really glad it's better. Now I just have to keep it going :) Thanks again! All these comments are amazing! YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING! :)

Tue, June 29th, 2010 4:56am

nhejie

i like it..

Tue, June 29th, 2010 11:43am

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Yay! Thank you!

Tue, June 29th, 2010 4:56am

EmilyStiches

uugg im commenting alot. im srry if i seem like im a stalker :P lol im not, dont worry. but sadly, i feel like i can relate to her in this chapter. ive never had a boyfriend before but im scared that if i did feel like i luved him i mite do something stupid. but thats just me.

Tue, June 29th, 2010 10:00pm

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Omg no! I LOVE YOUR COMMENTS. It makes me sooo happy that you're commenting a lot! :) Thanks sooo much. That is true, sometimes we just think its going to last forever, so we do whatever they want until something happens. And then you regret everything you did together. I have to say, that would really suck if that happened. Thanks again! :)

Tue, June 29th, 2010 10:54pm

zainub ajmal

I don't like this Mason guy, i get the feeling she's falling way over and that he's planning to leave,

nooo she shouldn't get hurt now:(

off to the next chapter.

Sat, July 3rd, 2010 9:47am

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Lol, some people like him and some people don't. Thanks for reading and commenting :)

Sat, July 3rd, 2010 6:07am

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