Don't Let Me Go

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Chapter 18 (v.1) - It's not goodbye

Submitted: April 15, 2013

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Submitted: April 15, 2013




Chapter 17: It’s not goodbye

 When I got to school I went to find Abby. It didn’t take long, she was waiting for me in the classroom.

“How serious is your dad about this?” Abby asked.

“I have to admit… Very serious! He quit his job here!”

“He… what? Oh My God! What are we going to do?”

“I have no idea!”

“I didn’t know your dad had decided this! Oh no…” her eyes were filled with tears.

 She was the first one to accept that we could not change his mind. And it was true… I hugged her and I felt tears running down my face too. I knew he would not change his mind!

“I don’t want to go, Abbs!” I said.

“I know! I don’t know what we’re going to here without you, Jessie! You are my best friend!”

“You too…”

“Let’s go to talk to the headmaster! Let’s convince him to take your dad back!”

“Do you think he’s going to listen to us? And even if we do… my dad won’t go back!”

 We remained silent for a while trying to think. “I will have to talk with my brother. Maybe he can help…” I figured.

“What about Dylan?” Abby asked.

 Oh my! I hadn’t thought of that! Oh no… how was I ever going to say goodbye? How could I hurt him like that?

“I don’t know… I guess I will have to tell him eventually, but not yet! He’s still on the hospital!”

“Jess, you’re leaving in four days! When are you going to tell him? He has the right to know!”

 Abby was right but I was afraid to talk to him! What if he got depressed again and it was my fault! Maybe I should have listened to him! Maybe we shouldn’t have done this! Maybe I should have stayed away from him! And now… he was the one who was going to get hurt! I hid my face with my hands and burst to tears.

“What am I going to do?”

 Abby hugged me. “It’s ok! We’ll figure it out, like we always have!”

 After school, Abby came with me at home, we were going to see Dylan at the hospital later. We also had to decide how we were going to handle this! We went to my room and opened the door.

“I have four days left… I can’t believe it! I just can’t!”

“Neither can I…”

“I feel like I’m drowning!” I said and opened the window. I took at deep breath and stayed there looking outside. How different did everything seem now than the first time I looked out of this window. At first it all seemed so distant so…. Strange but now, all of this was mine! The people I loved were here, this was the place that I belonged… Wasn’t it?

“But you still can come here in two years! I mean, you’re going to be eighteen! You can apply at a German College, so we can be all together again!”

“That’s for sure! Plus I will definitely visit in the summer. Promise you you’ll come to New York too!”

“Are you kidding me? I’ve always wanted to visit the city of fame! Finally I have a good excuse!”

 I smiled trying not to cry again. “I didn’t expect this! Me getting so attached with all of you here, so fast! But it happened so soon, and I had the most exciting time of my life, with all the street races and the action… I met you! I met Chris, who has been a very good friend to me as well and… I fell in love! Like… real love! And all these happened so soon… It’s like my life really started since I came here. Back in New York I had friend who didn’t get me, a boyfriend who I wasn’t in love with, a life that I didn’t actually live!” I took a deep breath “I can’t believe that it’s all over! It can’t be!”

“You changed our lives too! I found the most valuable friend I ever had, who also… helped me get my dream boyfriend!” she laughed and I laughed too as I remembered that night at the party. “Plus, you made Dylan Ford talk! Seriously, I had never heard his voice again in my life.”

 We laughed again.

“It seems so unreal that you’re going back to New York!”

“You’re leaving?” I heard Dylan’s voice behind me.

 I turned to see him standing at the window.

“Dylan, what are you doing here? Did they let you out?”

 He nodded but he looked too angry. His eyes were on mine. “I asked you a question!” he said fighting to keep his voice straight.

“I…” I couldn’t breathe. That was the worst way for him to find out. What was I supposed to say?

“I’m going to get a glass of water…” Abby said “… and then to the bathroom and then…. Home! This seems like it’s going to take some time!”

“Ok, bye Abby!”

 She left me and Dylan alone in my room. He was still looking at me without moving.

“So?” he whispered.

“Dylan, I… I wanted to tell you, it’s just that… I was…” I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t want to tell him the truth: that I hadn’t told him because I was afraid of what this might do to him. This would make him feel bad and ashamed for what was and he’d been through and that was the last thing I wanted.

“When the f**k were you planning on telling me, Jess?” he asked. I thought I heard his voice braking…  “Don’t you care at all? Or would you just go and wouldn’t say goodbye? Are you that selfish?”

“I’m so sorry…” I burst into tears.

 He looked away trying to keep being mad at me but he didn’t make it he just put his arms around me and kissed my forehead.

“I’m sorry… I shouldn’t have talked to you like that! I am a jerk!”

“No, I’m so sorry! I didn’t want you to find out like that!”

 I felt his tears on my face but I didn’t move. I knew it would make him feel bad if I looked at him. I just stayed there in his arms. How was I ever going to leave him?

“It’s because of that night, ah? The night I had the car accident! Your dad got mad…”

  I nodded.

 He kicked my desk making a big noise. “It’s all my fault!”

 No I was confused “How is any of these your fault?” I asked him.

“I’m the one who got you into this, Jess!”

“What are you talking about? If I hadn’t met you, my life here would be completely miserable! You made everything right, Dylan! I thought coming here was the worst thing that ever happened to me but since you came in my life… it all changed! I’ve experienced so many things with you and I don’t mean the races or… making out secretly… I mean feelings that I didn’t even know existed! I will still love you no matter where I am!”

“You can’t leave, Jess! Not now!”

“I wish I could stay!”

“But I need you!”

 Oh crap! Tears in my eyes again! “You’re not going to lose me! Ever! I promise!”

“When are you leaving?”

 I swallowed to gain some time. “Tuesday!” I said eventually.

“In four days?” he was getting mad again.

 All these feelings… all the tension in the atmosphere made my body shaking.


“No, Jess! When were you planning on telling me? When? After you’d left? Over the phone? I can’t believe you kept this from me! I can’t believe we have four days left…”

“Neither can I… we just started… we just…”I covered my mouth with my hand trying to prevent myself from crying once again. This was too melodramatic to bear!

“Don’t go!” he said with a serious expression looking me in the eyes.

“Don’t let me go!” I replied.

 And in my mind I begged him to stop me in some way.

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