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Today at school we bumped into each other in the hallway and I dropped my books, and as the gentleman he is, he helped me with them. As we were about to stand up, we both looked up and our eyes met, as soon as I looked into his eyes, I got lost and completely forgot where I was and what I was doing. There is just something about him that just clicks inside me, a type of click that should stay there and never go away. I know, I know very cliché, but it’s exactly how I feel.
I knew there was something between us but I thought I should just let it slide and not worry about it for now. I looked down and checked my timetable for what I had next. Science. YES! Perfect, I can talk to him more now. I walked into the classroom and sat down in my usual spot. I then started to day dream and then I saw him walk into the classroom. My heart stared beating faster and faster as he got closer and closer. I have never felt this way about a guy before and he just makes my heart melt. I can’t be myself around him, which I guess helps me because the real me isn’t good enough for him and he definitely wouldn’t like me if he actually knew me. I was just sitting there, staring at him when I noticed in the corner of my eye Lily walking into the classroom. Lily had medium length beautiful blonde hair with a side-fringe and bright, bright green eyes. She was quite tall but I was taller, she was probably my only friend and she also hates Honey just as much as I do because when we were in year 7, Honey pulled a horrible prank on Lily and she has hated her ever since. I’m just happy that at least someone understands how I feel about her. We can pretty much talk about anything with each other because she knows exactly how I feel about everything. I’m just so lucky to have at least one person as my really close friend.
When school finished me and Lily went to our favourite place in the park, it’s sort of a cave under the bridge in the middle of the park. We sit there and talk about stuff and that’s pretty much our spot for letting out our feelings. When we got there, we sat down and I started pouring my heart out with the feelings I have for James. I had actually never told her about how I felt about him but she always knew because I am horrible at keeping anything from her. She can read me like a book. My words sort of came out like ‘word vomit’, I know, I know I stole that quote from ‘Mean Girls’ but I just describes it so well. She was sitting there and listening intently while I let out my feelings. She is a great listener and she frowned when she had to, smiled when she had to and just all together was a great listener. I don’t understand how she could make out what I was saying because I was talking so quickly, I couldn’t even understand half of the things I was saying. I finally finished and I was breathing heavily. She let out a little giggle and then looked at me very intently and then said,
“I understand how you feel. But you can’t let a guy take over your life. Even though you don’t have a very good relationship with your sister, you should try making it better instead of making it worse by stealing her boyfriend. I know you’re thinking like how am I supposed to make it better if we have been fighting all this time, but you will be living her for a long time and you will know her for an even longer time so it’s best to try and have a good relationship with family because at the end of the day they do care about you.”
Wow, she knows exactly what to say at exactly the right time. I know I can always trust her to have good advice for me. I know that she is completely right, but I don’t know how I will make everything right because no matter how nice I try to be to any of my family, they always push me away and wan nothing to do with me. But I guess that if my parents hate me so much, why don’t they put me up for adoption? So, from that, I guess that they don’t hate me and now I will try my hardest to make peace with them.
I think they started ignoring me ever since I had that huge fight with my old friends and we stopped being friends. What happened was, I was really good friends with a two girls, their names are Rebecca and Amelia. We were so close that nothing could bring us apart. But then Josh came along, he was absolutely gorgeous and Rebecca and him started dating. She started putting him in front of us and eventually completely forgot about us. So me and Amelia forgot about her and continued living our lives as best friends. But then, Josh broke up with Rebecca and since she left all her friends for him, she had no one to turn to. I didn’t really care because I always stick to the saying “hoes before bros” and if she wanted to give up all her friends for a guy, I say go ahead but don’t come running back to us when he leaves you, I did actually tell her that and she didn’t really seem to acknowledge the fact that it could actually happen, and it did. So I was against becoming friends with her again but Amelia on the other hand, loved Rebecca and was pretty much her follower. She would give anything in the world to be her friend again. So I let her go back to being her follower and I just left them to live their lives. The day I left being friends with Amelia and Rebecca, I met the new girl from England, Lily who is the best friend anyone can have. I don’t regret anything I did, but on the other hand, my parents were in love with Rebecca and Amelia, and when they found out I wasn’t friends with them anymore, they stopped caring about me.
I then nudged Lily to tell me all she has been feeling. She started to blush and I gasped and screamed
I quickly covered my mouth because I realised I said it too loudly. She started laughing and jokingly punched me in the arm. She then started to talk about the new guy that recently came and how she is in the same art class as him and she started to like him because of how nice he is and stuff.
“If he hasn’t complemented you on your art, then he is nowhere near sweet.” I said. I had to say it because Lily is the most amazing artist I have ever met.
She blushed then replied with, “of course he has complemented it, i told you he was sweet.”
I have seen this guy around school before and I’m kind of suspicious about him, I don’t know what it is but he just doesn’t seem right. But if Lily likes him that much, I guess I can live with it.

Submitted: November 25, 2009

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