I closed my eyes and thought about both Jayden and Taylor. Jayden kissed me. I love him. But I’m not sure if he really loves me. Taylor. The sweet, kind, gentleman, marine from California. I know I was falling for him, hard and fast. But I have only really spent a couple of days with him. Was that enough to start a relationship? God why does this have to be so damn hard? I rubbed my eyes with the bottom of my palm and took a deep breath blowing it out through my mouth. I heard a sound by the door of the room making me look over. Something caught my eye making me take my IV in my hand to walk over to the small table that was next to the door. I looked out the door to see what made the same but didn’t see the root cause making me sigh confused. I picked up the little bear sitting on the table and ran my thumb over the soft material. I wasn’t a really small bear it just wasn’t large. It had on a camo uniform so I knew it was a soldier. I picked up the little piece of paper that the bear was sitting on.
I’m a dick I know. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said what I said about you. I thought you could use a friend right now since I haven’t been a good one. Take care of him: he
will always be there when you need a hug, just like me. I hope you can forgive my stupidity, my immaturity, my
sexiness idiotness. You’re my best friend. I just hope I haven’t lost
you. You’re the peanut to my jelly, the salt to my pepper, the Ooh to my Rah. You make my world livable. I need you to know that. You mean everything to me. When I bulked up it was
Take care Bails. I love you I’ll see you around sometime.
Jayden L. Dalton
P.S. I don’t regret it. I could never. It’s my favorite memory.
I ran my fingers over the words written perfectly on the paper. Even if he did cross out some letters it was still perfect. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. He was my Jayden deep down in there; he is just having trouble coming out. I needed to fix it so he shows up soon. I ran my thumb over the crossed out words gently wondering when Jay dropped his off. He must have truly been upset….. And it was my fault. But I couldn’t face him let. Not right now. Maybe later. But not right now. I picked up the IV bag and the bear and made my way back to the bed wanting to sleep for a very long time, so the pain goes away. I laid down, closing my eyes as my mind raced in my head. I had one rational thought out of all the crap in the crumbled mess up in there.
Sleep was not an option
…………It’s been a couple of days since the storm, and since Jayden kissed me. All the guys were released from the hospital almost hours after they got there but I am still here, sitting in this damn bed really to kill someone. I hated being in here. I have spent way too much time in hospitals my whole life to like it now. Wyatt told me when they cleared up the roads so people could get through that they closed the school they would clean up and fix the windows and get rid of all the broken glass. Dad has stayed with me the whole time I was here talking to me and making sure I was comfortable and okay. He hasn’t been home but he has seen Mom a couple of times, but not Dillon or Bentley. I felt bad because he was always here with me and not with them. But I’m getting released today. Doc promised. I looked down at the teddy bear in my hands that Jayden left me, the note tucked away in my pocket out of sight. Dad walked into the room and smiled at me. “Hey Baby.” I looked up from the bear in my hands to look at his face. “You ready to go home?” I nodded.
“I can’t wait to sleep in my own bed again.” I laughed gently looking back down. I felt the bed dip as Dad sat down next to me.
“You alright Bailey?” I looked up at him.
“Yeah I’m fine.” I nodded not sure who I was trying to convince. Me or him. He rubbed my back.
“Come on let’s get you back home.” He took my bag Mom brought me and helped me get out to the car. Not one of us talked the whole ride home; the only sound that was heard was the sound of the radio playing in the background. He pulled up to the house. I got out as he looked at me.
“Aren’t you coming Dad?” I asked tipping my head to the side.
“I will be back later Baby I have to do something alright.” He rubbed his face. “Here let me help you into the house before I go.”
“No Dad I’m alright don’t worry. Just go do what you have to do.” He nodded. “I love you.”
“I love you too.” He smiled at me one last time before he drove away. I walked into the house and into my room quietly. I dropped my bag and sat at my desk pulling out a piece of paper.
You’re my best friend. You annoy me to no end, you piss me off causing us to fight, but you’re always there for me. I hope you know that. You have always been‘My Jayden’ no matter what you do or say but sometimes I do want to see what it feels like to put a pillow over your head till you stop moving but I don’t. You are like my brother. You have me at times ready to kill you, but you’re always there when I need you. What I’m trying to say is that Jayden you’re my everything too. I need you in my life no matter what happens. You have always been at my side since we were kids at the park. I wouldn’t know what to do if you weren’t in my life, and I am not ready to find out either. I just want my best friend back, not some jock asshole that thinks he knows everything and anything when he doesn’t, but that’s a story for another time. What I’m trying to say is call me Jay, when you get this. You know my number.
You’re crazy best friend,
Bailey K. Williams
P.S. I forgave you.
I folded the letter and slipped it into the envelope that had Jayden’s address on it. I didn’t have the nerve to give it to him face to face. I am a coward….
A/N: Okay so the tally for the teams is ready. SO we have 42 people for Team Hollywood (Taylor) and 13 people for Team Jayden. Lastly we have4 people undecided on who to choose, and I am one of them :) -Patty
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