I held my head in my hands at I sat on the floor sobbing. I can’t believe I just did that. I just did. “Hey. Hey, hey it’s alright baby. Shhh.” I felt warm hands picking me up and pulling me onto a warm body. Dad held me tightly to his chest as I sobbed deeply. I looked up at him as the tears flowed freely from my eyes. He looked down at me moving a piece of hair from my face.
“What am I going to do Daddy?” He kissed my forehead.
“I don’t know sweetheart.”
“I can’t let him hurt me anymore.” He nodded gently rocking me.
“I know sweetheart. You did what you needed to do. I know you did because if you didn’t then you wouldn’t be crying this hard.” I laid my head back onto his chest and snuggled into the warm fabric.
“I wish it was different Daddy. I wish it would work out between us. I love him.” Dad held me tighter.
“I know Baby shhh I know you do.” I shook my head.
“I wish it was different.” He pulled my face to look at his.
“I know. God I know. But this right here is what’s supposed to be like. I know you love him. I know you do. But he hurt you. More than once. That’s not okay. You need someone who won’t hurt you. Someone who loves you and only wants what best for you. Baby that what you need.” I looked up at him wiping my tears.
“How am I ever going to find a guy like that?” I asked pouting. Dad smiled.
“Don’t look for him. He will find you when you least expect it.” I sighed putting my head back into Dad’s shoulder. I heard the door knock making me look up.
“I can’t face him Dad. I can’t.” He nodded.
“Go to your room. I’ll talk to him.” Dad pulled us up together and let me go. “Go I come to your room when he’s gone.” I nodded running off to my room without looking back. Dad turned around as the door knocked again. He opened the door to see Jayden standing there, tears running down his face.
“Is,” He cleared his throat before wiping the tears off his cheek. “Can I talk to Bailey? Please.”
“Son why don’t we talk.” He said gently walking out of the house closing the door behind him.
“Yes Sir, But I just really need to talk to her it’s really important.” Dad sat down and patted the spot next to him. Jayden sighed sitting down next to him looking out into the distance.
“I know what you and Bailey where talking about.” He looked over at him. “I know the kiss in the hospital. I know about the whole conversation in the hospital.”
“Sir I, I, I, I’m sorry.” He shook his head.
“As much as I want to kill you right now I’m thinking of my family. For my only daughter.” Jay nodded.
“I love her Sir, so much.” Dad sighed messing with a bracelet on his wrist.
“I know you do. But what Bailey said was right. It’s time you both think about other people.”
“I screwed up I know I did. Please I just need her to know that I need a second chance.”
“Jayden you have to understand you are killing her inside. The light that used to be in my daughter’s eyes isn’t there anymore. You are killing her. She loves you and all you do is hurt her.” Jayden put his head in his hands.
“I don’t mean to. Not at all.” Dad sighed putting him hand on Jayden’s back rubbing it.
“I know you don’t mean it. I have watched the two of you grow up together. You would never hurt her on purpose but you do hurt her, so much.” Jayden’s shoulders shook as he cried. “I know you love her. But maybe it’s time you both just think of other people. You go off to the Island in a couple of months and Bails is going to go to college. You need to be ready for that.”
“But I can’t not have her in my life.”
“Then you both have to bite the bullet and just be friends.”
“But she is, she, I love her.” He shuddered on his words.
“You might love her Son, but its best for both of you. You both are just miserable right now.”
“I wish it was different. I wish this whole thing never happened.”
“When you two get older, you might see that this was just a bump in the friendship you have. But right now you just need to split from each other. That girl, what was her name, Bitchaurus….Sophia. That’s it. You and her should try something. You never know.”
“But I don’t like her. I just used her.”
“Not what you want to tell the father of the girl you are ‘deeply in love’ with.” Dad moaned laughing a little.
“What I’m trying to say is you need to move on. You need to take what you learned from this problem and take that and fix it.” Jayden looked at him. “Take the mistakes you did with Bailey and fix them, make yourself a better person. You are the only person that can change yourself.” Dad looked at the sky, watching the clouds roll by. “When you find the girl you should be with, you’ll know it. She will jump at you. She will make you only see her face. And I know that Bailey just isn’t what you need right now. She needs someone who loves her and won’t hurt her. Jayden you hurt my little girl.”
“I’m sorry Sir. I really am.”
“You know you say sorry a lot. It makes me have a hard time believing you.”Jayden looked up at Dad his green eyes bight as you saw the tears clearly in them.
“Sir…” He trailed off.
“Jayden I have to protect my little girl and her heart is one of my biggest concerns. I need to make sure the guy she picks to spend the rest of her life with is the right guy for her.” He looked down at him. “You are a great guy Jay, trust me I know you are a great guy. I have known you for 13 years. But Jayden you aren’t the right guy for her. You need to find the right guy for yourself.”
“How the hell am I supposed to do that?” He asked watching dad as he stood up from where they were sitting on the steps of the house.
“That’s for you to figure out there Son. Not me. I already found my girl and have 4 kids with her. You need to find the girl that pains your heart to be away from. She needs to be the girl that holds your heart. You need to find her.”
“How will I know when I found her Mr. Williams?” Dad smiled at him walking to the door opening it. He turned to look at Jayden one last time.
“Trust me Son, you’ll know when you find her.” He shut the door, leaving Jayden sitting on the step thinking over everything he was just told….
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