I snuggled farther into Tanner’s shoulder as the feeling of being safe took over. Tanner still had his chin on top of my head as I
started to fall asleep. He looked down at me and started to smile. “Are going to sleep on me?” He laughed gently.
“Ahmmm.” I nodded my head my eyes still closed. “Your comfy you know that?” I mumbled. He pressed his lips to my head.
“No one ever told me that.” He laughed.
“Well I did.” I snuggled into his warm skin. He stood up easily with me in his arms. “Where are you going?” I mumbled barley aware
of the gentle rocking of him moving.
“I’m going to lay you in bed so you can go to sleep. Now where is your room?” He asked walking down the hallway.
“I’m next to the bathroom across from TJ.” I said putting my arms around his neck so I wouldn’t fall. I ran my fingers over the dog
tags around his neck that I didn’t feel before. I pressed my lips to his chest before opening my eyes as we reached my room.
“You got a nice room Ryan.” He said looking around the dark room.
“Shh the baby is sleeping. And you can’t even see it.” I laughed at him quietly. He looked at the crib by my bed.
“Oops, sorry.” He smiled. He laid me on my bed as my eye lids started to droop again. “Good night Ryan.” He whispered walking to the
door. I sat up leaning on my elbows and looked at him.
“Where are you going?” I asked scared that the feeling was leaving me. He stopped and looked at me.
“I was going to leave so you can sleep.” He looked at my alarm clock. “It’s getting pretty late.” He nodded to it. I looked at the
glowing blue numbers. 11.30. I looked back at him.
“But I don’t want to be alone. Please don’t leave me alone. Then they will come back.” I said my eyes watering. He sat next to me
and looked at me.
“Who will come back?” He asked running his knuckle down my cheek.
“The nightmares. You make me feel safe. I don’t want that feeling to go away. I liked it.” I whispered turning away from him. “I
haven’t felt it in so long. I missed it.” I felt Tanner’s hand on my face pulling it to look at his face.
“All you had to do was ask. I would have stayed. I will stay.” He ran his thumb over the tears that fell down my cheeks. “I know
that feeling. I haven’t felt it since Wyatt died. I have missed it so much I forgot what it felt like. But before with that one hug. I felt at peace. I missed that feeling so much.” He smiled at me
pushing me gently down so my head was on my pillows. I pulled the pillow next to me to my chest holding it tight. Tanner pulled the pillow out of my grasp.
“Hey.” As he fell on the bed next to me. “I was holding that.” I said turning on my stomach to look at him. He had my pillow under
his head, as he pulled the sheet and blankets up to the waist band of his sweats.
“But it looks so comfy and hugged.” He smiled pulling me to him. I laid my head on his chest again and smiled.
“I guess this is the next best thing.” I poked the hard muscles. “Its guess it’s as soft too.” I smirked closing my
“I am not soft. There is just more to love.” He smirked closing his eyes as I rolled onto my side cuddling up to his bare chest as
the darkest took over and I slipped into a pleasant dreamland…….
I woke to the sound of Asher standing up in the crib. He looked at me still sucking on his binky. I rubbed my eyes and sat up in my
bed. I was too warm to be alone. I looked over at Tanner to see him still fast asleep snoring lightly. I smiled because they were light snores so they were like a lullaby. I got out of bed and
picked up Asher walking to the kitchen. I made him a bottle and grabbed a piece of cold pizza from the box I put in last night. I pulled the note from off the frig and read it.
I had to go to the hospital early today because they are short staffed. I was going to wake you last night to say good night but you were fast asleep with that boy. We need to talk when I get home.
I love you baby girl and I left some more on the counter for lunch because I haven’t had time to food shop. I dropped TJ off at practice so you have the house to yourself, well other than Asher,
that boy, and Hunter when he gets home from Emmy’s house.
See you when I get home,
PS I love you
I shook my head and looked at Asher as he suckled away at his bottle. Like clockwork Hunter came through the front door with Emmy.
“Morning Sis.” He smiled.
“Morning.” I said, the pizza mumbling my words since it was still in my mouth. “How was your date?” I asked him as Emmy picked up
Asher and kissed him.
“It was great.” She smiled. Hunter put his arms around her shoulders.
“We wanted to pick him up so we could go out to breakfast. Do you want to come too?” He asked me as Emmy changed Asher in the living
“No I think I’m good here.” I nodded sipping my milk. He kissed my head as Emmy came back in. “I’ll see you three later than.” I
nodded smiling at them.
“Okay see you later.” Emmy smiled kissing my cheek. They walked back out leaving me alone in the kitchen. I sat down and started to
read the news paper as I ate my pizza. I was reading something that I didn’t hear Tanner come in till I felt him kiss my head. I almost jumped out of my skin. My breathing hitched as memories of
Owen flooded my head. Tanner turned me around. “I’m sorry.” He asked concerned.
“It’s okay.” I sighed getting up and walking out the front door. He looked down at the news paper and read the article that made me
jump so scared, before he ran after me. I had my arms wrapped around me as the tears fell from my eyes. He pulled me into his chest as the first rain drops fell unnoticed. He pulled back and
started to run his finger down my cheek as the freezing rain soaked us both.
“It’s okay, don’t cry.” He whispered looking my face over.
“I’m not crying.” I sniffled looking away from his warm brown eyes. He smiled.
“Then why is your face wet with tears?” He asked pulling my body closer to his.
“Because it’s raining.” I laughed, forgetting why I was crying. He looked up at the sky.
“Hey would you look at that. It’s pouring out.” He smirked at me. I laughed.
“Can we go inside now? It’s getting really cold now.” Without realizing it his hands started to rub up and down my arms trying to
get me a little warmer.
“Can I do one thing first?” He asked his face only inches from mine. I nodded not trusting my voice. His warm lips brushed mine,
right there, in front of my house, in the pouring rain………
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