After breakfast I went back out to the frosty air. I pulled my cell phone out and dialed home.
Me* Hey Dad
Dad* Hey Baby, how are you?
Me* I’m okay, how are you?
Dad* I miss my baby girl
Me* I had to get out last night
Dad* I know Ry; I was just so mad that he was hurting you and I never saw it, or made it stop.
Me* Dad you didn’t know about it
Dad* That makes me feel worse because I should have known you were hurting.
Me* I hid it from you. I was ashamed with myself, but, but when you said what I thought was true….
Dad*Baby I am not ashamed with you. I could never be ashamed, or disappointed in you. You’re my daughter, my little girl. The daughter I always dreamed of. I could never, ever, not love you. Baby I
Me* Scared? Scared of what?
Dad* I was scared I was going to lose you. I have heard so many stories of girls dying from their boyfriends beating them. I don’t want a call when I’m away saying my daughter is dead.
Me*Dad are you trying to tell me something other than this.
Dad* I need you and your brother to come home soon
Dad* Please? I don’t want to tell you over the phone.
Me* Okay, I’ll get TJ and we will make our way home.
Dad* Okay, see you soon.
Me* Okay, Bye Dad. I love you.
Dad* Love you too.
I hung up the phone and sighed. What could he not want to tell us? I got up and slowly got up and walked back to the motel room. TJ was sitting packing his bag after a shower. “Hey Sis, what’s up?”
“We have to get home. Dad wants us.” I said grabbing my bag and shoving my clothes into it.
“Why?” He asked grabbing my wrist. I looked up at him. He put a hand on my cheek. I turned away from him. “What’s wrong? Why do I have a feeling that he has his orders?” I shrugged. He pulled
me to him. “It will be okay. I promise.” He said rocking me ever so gently.
“I hope I’m wrong.” I whispered hugging him. He sighed.
“You’re never wrong when deployment is involved.” He sighed.
“I know but I can hope.” I looked up at him. “Right?”
“Right.” He nodded…………
We walked into the house to see Mom and Dad sitting in the living room. You could see Mom has been crying. “We’re home.” He said, even though they saw us.
“Guys we need to talk.” She said looking at the two of us. “Why don’t you sit down.” She said with that look in her eyes.
“You got your orders didn’t you?” I asked squeezing TJ’s hand. Dad nodded.
“They came before I yelled at you last night. I have to go spend 7 months in Afghanistan.” He sighed. I felt the tears start to roll down my face. “Aw baby come here.” He opened his arms. I crawled
into his arms and laid my head on his shoulder.
“I don’t want you to go.” I cried. He held me as Mom looked at TJ. They left us alone.
“I know baby but I have to go.” He sighed laying his head on top of mine.
“But I don’t want you to go.” He sighed.
“7 months means that you’re going to miss graduation and when TJ leaves…..Oh god that’s even worse.” I broke into sobs. “I’m losing all of you.” I cried into his shoulder. He hugged me.
“You’ll never lose any of us because we are all right here.” He said pointing to my heart. I nodded at him. “And right here.” He said moving his finger to my forehead. I nodded. “I love you.”
“I love you too Daddy.” I sighed snuggling into his cotton t-shirt. He pressed his lips to my head. “When do you leave?” I asked looking up at him. He sighed.
“I have enough time to help move you, TJ, and your Mom to the new base. But shortly after I’m going to have to leave.” I stuck my bottom lip out.
“So, how long?” I asked.
“About 10 days. We are going to start packing tomorrow. We are moving to Virginia.” He smiled moving me on his lap so be was cradling me like a baby.
“What about Uncle Jesse and Aunt Kirsty and Uncle Ruben and Aunt Alex? We are just leaving them here?” My eyes widen. “I don’t want to leave them here!” I started to panic. I have never been far
from Aunt Kirsty or Logan or even Sam. We stayed on the same base together, we went on vacation together, and we even went to the same summer camps as Logan since we are only about 8 months apart.
We grew up together. Audrey was the same, well kind of. She was in Germany when Uncle Jesse and Dad were stationed in Japan. But After a little while we got sent to Germany.
“Well I talked to your Uncle Jesse and he also requested the change and it was granted, but Uncle Ruben can’t come with us. He has to stay here.” I felt the tears started to leak from my eyes.
“I don’t want to be away from them.” I cried snuggling back into his shirt.
“I know baby, but we are going to have to. You’ll get to see them soon. We won’t be too far from them. We are only moving a state over. I promise.” He kissed my head.
“I don’t like this Daddy.” I sobbed. I was just so out of it. For all that happened I was allowed to cry. In the past week I have been raped, beaten 3 times, got into a huge fight with my Dad, left
to a motel, had to help my Brother after a fight because he beat up my boyfriend, I leaned that my father was going to miss my high school graduation, I’m moving states, and lastly I’m not going to
have my best friend with me. I was allowed to cry my heart out. It’s been a long week………..
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