Chapter 6:

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

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GOING UNDER
 
CHAPTER SIX
 
 
After checking on my mother the next morning and carefully washing and changing her clothes I headed downstairs.
 
My body would not stop shaking as I approached the kitchen where I could hear voices coming from.
 
The noise stopped as I stood shakily in the doorway looking at them all wearily, Blade looked up from the girl Lyn who was sitting on his lap smoking and gave me a smirk “sleep well Tiny?” I glared at him then turned and walked towards the lounge room.
 
Seeing the mess that they had made I couldn’t stop the tears from falling down my face and as I hurried over to where there were broken pictures they fell faster.
 
Bending down I picked up the pictures then carefully started to pick the glass out of the carpet a piece at a time.
 
Someone knelt down beside me making me shrink away then a small white hand was held out to me “hi Destiny my name is Katrina I am so sorry about the mess we have made to your house” I looked at her wearily then went back to picking up the glass “Des can I ask you where your dad is?”
 
Picking up the picture of him and my mum on their wedding day I looked at it sadly “he died” she looked at the picture then at me “how did he die?” I pressed the picture against my chest “he was a navy seal and died while away.”
 
She touched my shoulder while looking around us “then shouldn’t there be money from the government to help his family?” I gave a harsh laugh “there should be but it is tied up in red tape or so they say but really they just don’t care now that he is gone and not serving his country.”
 
She gave an angry hiss “that is so much bull shit and they shouldn’t be allowed to get away with doing it” I shrugged getting to my feet “who is going to fight them when I am only sixteen and my mother may as well be dead with my father.”
 
Katrina stood up looking towards the door “Des what Blade did to you was wrong and he knows it my brother is not like that really there is something about you and seeing you hurting yourself that makes him this way” I blinked tears away “he is your brother?” She nodded giving a small smile “he is and he has looked after me since our parents died but since that fucking Lyn has joined our gang I may as well not exist since he doesn’t listen to anyone but her.”
 
Looking at her sadly I started to head towards the door “I think I will just go to my room” Katrina caught my arm “Des you are not allowed to since Blade is up there with that thing” I looked at her in horror then at the stairs “he took her to my room?”
 
Katrina nodded looking at me wearily as I shook with anger, I stormed towards the stairs snarling “I don’t give a fuck who he is or what he thinks he owns but no one goes in my room without my permission.”
 
Katrina chased along behind me as I stormed upstairs and to my room throwing the door open.
 
Blade and Lyn sprang apart Lyn trying to cover herself as I stood there glaring at them “get the fuck out of my room you want to have sex do it in the basement or outside where dogs belong but do not fucking do it in my room” I shouted my hands clenching into fists.
 
Katrina tried to pull me from the room when Blade got to his feet storming towards me but I wouldn’t budge.
 
Blade pulled his knife flicking it from hand to hand as he stopped in front of me “who gave you permission to come up here and bother me while I am with my girlfriend.”
 
Looking hatefully at his girlfriend I shook my head “that is your girlfriend I have seen better looking dogs then that but this is my room and I want you and what ever the fuck that is out.”
 
Blade pushed the tip of his knife against my cheek making me suck in a terrified breath “no Tiny this is our room and I want to fuck my girlfriend in it so run along with my sister and be a good little pet.”
 
I don’t know what possessed me but suddenly seeing red I yanked the knife out of his hand and held it to his throat just like my father had taught me “get the fuck out now” I snarled at a shocked Blade.
 
He looked from me to the knife I was now holding “how the fuck did you do that?” I shrugged clutching the knife tighter “like I told your sister my father was a navy seal who taught me a few tricks before he died now get out of my room.”
 
Blade gave me a cold smirk then suddenly he grabbed my arm moving closer he twisted my arm behind my back until I dropped the knife “not every trick baby” he whispered in my ear before running his tongue around it.
 
His hand slid down my arm grabbing my hand “Katrina and Lyn out I want to spend some time with our new pet.”
 
When the two girls had gone he slammed the door then pulled me towards my bed but I struggled digging my feet into the carpet “let go off me” I snarled my fingers digging into his hand that held mine “Tiny you came up here stopping me from having sex with my girlfriend so now you have volunteered yourself to be my fuck buddy for the day.”
 
Fighting desperately I managed to twist my way out of his hold and before he could grab me again I was in the bathroom with the door locked.
 
Ignoring his fists hammering against the door I grabbed my razor and cut my arms while singing to myself.
 
Faint white figures paint my sleep
please don't tell my secrets keep them hidden (you got it, you got it, you got it)
if the words that matter reach your face from floor
will you be wondering if, or (do I need what is given or honest)
does it cost me scarring if the words stay true
even number your nephew (I don't want it, don't want it, don't want it anymore)

[Chorus:]
and when the answer that you want
is in the question that you state
come what may
come what may
[x2]

in a pain that buckles out your knees
could you stop this if I plead (you got it, you got it, you got it)
so destined I am to walk among the dark
a child in keeping secrets from (will they know what I've done in the after)
in the sought for matter when the words blame you
in a blood red summer I'll give you (I don't want it, don't want it, don't want it)

[Chorus]

what did I do to deserve
what did I do to deserve
this? This?
[X2]

[ad libs]
wa oh wa ooooh
wa oh oh oh woah

what did I do to deserve
what did I do to deserve
this? this?
[x3]

what did I do to deserve
what did I do.
 
Sitting on the floor I watched as my blood pooled on the floor then closed my eyes praying for death.
 
The door suddenly flew open and I was yanked off of the floor and lifted into someone’s arms as they carried me from the bathroom and placed me on the bed.
 
They tugged at my arms as they wrapped bandages around my cuts then their angry breath was in my ear “I warned you Tiny not to do this anymore” Blade snarled his hand twining through my hair and tugging it gently “what was you trying to do kill yourself what will that solve?” I forced my eyes open and tried to focus on him “what the fuck do you care I am just some fucking pathetic girl you have taken advantage of and took the innocence of so fuck off and leave me the hell alone.”
 
He moved away and I thought he was leaving until he came back pulling me into a sitting position as he undressed me then forced something else over my head and pulled my arms through then he pulled back the covers on my bed and tucked me under them “sleep while I go and get you something to eat” I gave a sad sigh shaking my head “don’t bother I am not going to eat it and I don’t want anything from you.”
 
Blade climbed onto the bed leaning over me his jade eyes blazing with anger “while I am around Tiny there will be no more cutting yourself and you will eat or I will get my gang to hold you down while I force it down your throat.”
Seeing the tears filling my eyes he sighed “Tiny do you want your mother to get better only to be told her daughter is also dead what do you think that will do to her?” I turned my head away as tears slid down my cheeks “just get out and leave me alone.”
 
He ignored my quite plea and laid down beside me forcing me to look at him “you are all your mother has left just as Katrina is all I have left and I know if anything happened to her I would be destroyed just like your mother would be if anything was to happen to you”
 
Glaring into his eyes I gave a harsh laugh “Katrina you want me to believe that you give a shit about your baby sister when she herself told me that after that whore joined your gang you forgot she even existed and could careless what happens to her.”
 
He pressed his angry face close to mine making me suck in a terrified breath “don’t talk about shit that you do not understand okay my sister may think that I have forgotten about her but that is far from the truth she is all I think about worry about growing up in this world the way she has.”
 
He sighed reaching out to wipe my tears away “look Tiny I am sorry that I used your vulnerability to our advantage but I wanted my sister to have a real home for once even if there are no real parents it is better then living on the streets.”
Nodding my head weakly I again turned away from his intense eyes “I can understand that I just wish that it wasn’t me that you decided to use since my mother will be angry with me for allowing a gang to move in here and I am sure my father is so disappointed in me.”
 
Blade brushed my hair away from my neck and pressed a gentle kiss to my skin making shivers run down my spine “your mother maybe angry but I do not think your father would be disappointed since you are only doing what you have to do to survive in this world that he left you in”
Squeezing my eyes closed and pretending he wasn’t there I silently cried myself to sleep praying that some kind of miracle would happen to save me from the life I now lived in
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 


Submitted: June 02, 2011

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