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LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE
 
CHAPTER TWELVE
 
When we got back to the house he excused himself saying that he had things to do in the study.
 
Finding myself alone I headed to my room pulling out my stash that I had hidden on me when Blake and Nigel brought me here.
 
Rolling a joint I sat on the window seal and smoked it while I started to sing a song that was close to my heart it was a song called Sullen Girl done by Fiona Apple.
 
Days like this, I don't know what to do with myself
All day and all night
I wander the halls along the walls and under my breath
I say to myself
I need fuel to take flight

And there's too much going on
But it's calm under the waves, in the blue of my oblivion
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion

Is that why they call me a sullen girl, sullen girl
They don't know I used to sail the deep and tranquil sea
But he washed me ashore and he took my pearl
And left an empty shell of me

And there's too much going on
But it's calm under the waves in the blue of my oblivion
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion
It's calm under the waves in the blue of my oblivion.
 
With tears sliding down my face I started singing a song I was working on for the band one by Tori Amos called Black Dove January.
 
She was a January girl
She never let on how insane it was
In that tiny kinda scary house
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods

Black-dove
Black-dove
You're not a helicopter
You're not a cop out either
Black-dove
Black-dove
You don't need a space ship
They don't know you've already lived
On the other side of the galaxy
The other side of the galaxy
The other side of the galaxy

She had a January world
So many storms not right somehow
How a lion becomes a mouse
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
But I have to get to TEXAS
Said I have to get to TEXAS
And I'll give away my blue blue dress

Black-dove
Black-dove
You don't need a space ship
They don't know you've already lived
On the other side of the galaxy
The other side of the galaxy
The other side of the galaxy

But I have to get to TEXAS
Said I have to get to TEXAS
And I'll give away my blue blue dress

She has a January girl
She never let on how insane it was
In that tiny kinda scary house
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
Black-dove.
 When I finished singing a male voice started to sing a song, I stayed facing the window as he sang to me a song by Inxs.
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry

When you're down and confused
Nothing seems right
And it's you who decides
Who's going to make it right

Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry

Well life ain't no joke
But it's good when you smile
Steal everything
But you won't get far

Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry

Sometimes you will fall
What cha gonna do?
Give your friend a call

Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry

We know that you can smile
Even though it takes a while
To lose your fears and say
Gonna lose your fears and say

Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry

Do you know who you are
And where you're going to
Don't you know that love
Gonna pull you
Gonna pull you through now baby

Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry

Baby don't cry, Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry, Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry, Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry. Baby don't cry

Face to face
Anything is possible
Not political, or analytical
Never giving up on the wrong
You got a choice
Why don't you use it
Change, is an attitude
Guaranteed to take hold of you
So welcome, to the turnstile
Take a turn with a new vow
Hey, I know what you know
All the sympathy
Made a mess of me
Respect the sacrifice
Before the number one
Now it has begun

Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry
Baby don't cry.
Wiping away my tears I slowly turned to face the guy who just sang such a beautiful song to me “thank you it was beautiful.”
Kane smiled as he started to walk towards me but it fell as he saw what I was holding in my hand “drugs, drugs you are doing fucking drugs in my house” he shouted making me drop it on the carpet as I jumped then cringed away from the rage I could see in his eyes.
 
He grabbed the still burning joint of the floor and threw it out the window before focusing on me but when he saw how white and scared I was he tried his hardest to rain his temper in “look Bell I’m sorry I should not have yelled like that but we do not allow drugs into this house.”
Blinking furiously trying to get rid of my tears I looked up at him “I’m sorry I wont do it in here again” he sighed shaking his head “Bell you shouldn’t be doing them in the first place” I looked down twisting my fingers together “I need them to help me get through the day.”
 
He grabbed my chin as he squatted down in front of me “Bell those things may make you think that you are coping but it is nothing but an illusion and you need proper help not what that crap offers” I moved away from him and jumped to my feet “I do not need a shrink okay they can not help me, they can not understand what I went through or what I feel.”
 
Kane crossed his arms looking at me angrily “so what are you just going to go on like this for the rest of your life, are you just going to continue being the victim to live in fear of every man that just wants to love and protect you” I wiped away my tears glaring at him “what the fuck would you know about anything, you did not live what I lived through you did not murder the man that you loved just to save yourself and you do not have to constantly look over your shoulder waiting for someone to take you out like they promised they would.” I wiped at more tears “you did not lose your baby then get told you will never have another because of what was done to you, love why the fuck would I want some man to love me when one has already hurt me so fucking much?”
 
Kane looked at me sadly then headed for the door “maybe Bell it is time that you let someone in let them show you what real love is and not that fucked up version of love you had with Reece.”
 
When the door closed behind him I screamed and smashed everything I could get my hands on then with sobs shaking me I found a blade and cut myself until all I felt was a different kind of pain.
 
 
 


Submitted: April 01, 2011

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biancajaye

i cant wait to see what happens next can you please updated me :)

Sun, April 3rd, 2011 5:42am

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Of course I will and thank you for reading

Sat, April 2nd, 2011 11:34pm

PoisonIvyBeauty

Awwwwwwww I think Kane might really like her. Maybe if he dropped the angry attitude around her than maybe he would have a easier time getting her to like him.

Sun, April 3rd, 2011 7:38am

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Yeah maybe he does and yes he needs to change his attitude a bit doesn't he.

Sun, April 3rd, 2011 7:49am

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