Almost 10 hours had been passed yet hayyam didn’t come back from emergency ward. Shahram was sitting on a chair beside ward, hiding his face in between his hands. He was weeping and his sobs were echoing in that area. Everyone was seated there; zareena was sitting beside shahram. Sanaya went to console him but he waved off her hand, facing back to her.
Marium: shahram I can understand the frustration that you are going through (she put hand above his hand to console his sobs). Don’t worry she will be fine and it’s high time to beg her pardon; will you?
Shahram: yes of course aunty, I have been waiting for months to find her and get her back again in my life! (He looked back to marium and asked her wiping his tears)
Sanaya: and what about me shahram? (She asked him at once and he was jerked to hear her that question. He turned his face back to her who was waiting to hear his answer)
Shahram: you are still thinking about yourself sanaya! She is hanging and struggling in between life and death and you are so mean, so selfish that you don’t have time to think about her, about her pardon, about her state! (He was infuriated to hear her).
Hayyam was still inside ward;
When he moved scalpel on her tissues, his heart was sinking with her blood oozing out (LOOK! HOW YOUR DESTINY COULD BE RUINED AND LURCHED AT ONCE)
When he moved the straight handle, with detachable disposal blades of different shapes on bones of her body; he felt like moving them on his bone (LOOK! HOW YOUR HOME CAN BE DISTRACTED AS PIECE OF MUD!)
When he incised her skin, he felt that saw rubbing his skin (EACH PART SEEMS TO BE ENGROSSED BY HATE)
When he equipped with an eye for threading suture material fused on the needle; he felt like stitching his tears for her (NOTHING LEADS TO TRANSGRESS TO PATH OF LOVE)
When he felt her pulse sinking; he felt his pulse digging (WHERE YOU ARE……AND WHERE I AM)
When he felt her ECG waves with few spikes, he was damn dump folded then (LOOK! HOW AN AUTUMN CAN BRING YOU TO DISTRACTION WITH NO END! LOOK……!)
Sam: oh shit hayyam! She is sinking! (She yelled to monitor her ECG waves and they were showing the very few spikes of waves on screen of monitor)
Hayyam was dump folded; he was winced. He ordered to give her an electric shock on her chest to activate her potential to beat her heart. Nurse within no time held the cuffs in his hand connected with electric wire. He put those on her chest to have her shock.
Hayyam: 1, 2,…….3, (there he put those on her chest and she was jerked, she spranged from her bed);
Hayyam again repeated and she jerked back and within no time she felt herself sinking again in flashbacks
YOU ARE NOT MY DAUGHTER, YOU ARE NOT TENURE OF MY LOVE
SHAHRAM PLEASE TRUST ME, I AM YOUR ROSHINI
SHAHRAM PLEASE LISTEN TO ME JUST FOR ONCE; PLEASE GIVE ME AT LEAST ONE CHANCE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF PLEASE
YOU ARE NOT MY DAUGHTER!
YOU ARE DIED FOR US…..
YOU ARE NOT TENURE OF MY LOVE….
DID YOU HERE…..YOU ARE DIED FOR US…..
YOU ARE NOT MY DAUGHTER…..
And when she met to hayyam:
PARI I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU
WILL YOU MARRY ME?
I AM NOT INTERESTED IN YOUR PAST; I JUST WANT TO MAKE YOU MY PRESENT AND MY FUTURE!
PROMISE ME THAT YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE ME………..NEVER!
And that was the last phrase that she could remember; she wanted to speak, she wanted to meet her tintin but she could not; she was just getting herself depicting in a deep darkness, in a very deep dig with no ultimate end. Her trance was not allowing her to gulp her tears. And there she sighed her last breath with no more vital sign.
Hayyam put third and last time those cuffs on her chest but that time she didn’t jerk back, she didn’t move her body;
Her ECG waves were flat with no any single spike
Her pulse was no more; it was not signing any single vibe
Her heart beat was flickered with no beats
Her respiration was neither sighing irregularly nor threading but it was quit, damn quit!
She was died……….SHE WAS DIED!
Hayyam tiptoed three to four steps back; he could not believe that she was no more; she was damn no more in his life!
In my fate; in every page of my fate; in each moment of my fate
In my life and after my death at the Day of Resurrection;
In my present and in my future ahead;
Oh GOD! Draw her in each page of my life with golden words that
In each story of my life; in each asap of my life;
In the world of my heart
In each relation of my life; in each moment of my life;
I bow before you oh GOD! Retire her intrusion in my life to fetch my quench please
I yearn to give her back to me please
SHE IS MINE……SHE IS MINE……SHE HAS TO BE MINE!!!!!
NOOO (he yelled as much as he could)
But she was no more and there was left nothing in that ward except his sobs. She was no more in his life!
You didn’t give me at least one chance roshini to beg your pardon! You left me punishing me for my life time! Shahram cried
All LOVE of mine
With a song and whine; you are harsh and divine
Like truths and a lie.
But the tale ends not here; I have nothing to fear,
For my Love is hell of giving and hold on
And the bright Emptiness;
In s room full of it, Is a cruel mistress;
I feel this unrest, that nests all hollowness;
For I have nowhere to go in the cold;
And I feel so lonely; there’s a better place than this……
And I am so lonely;
There’s a better place than this…..
Hayyam was standing in front of sea waves. His eyes were welled and teary. He remembered;
(Hayyam: pari do you know, I always come here whenever I am whether happy or sad!
Pari: why? Any specific reason?
Hayyam: yes because I find to be complete with my all emotions apathetic to my heart when I do come here and stand in front of these waves touching my feet with love and care!
Pari: and do you really feel good when you do stand here all alone?
Hayyam: ya but I feel that I don’t need now to come here henceforth!
Hayyam: because I have got you now and I am complete to stand with you that’s why I don’t need to come here!
Pari: then why have you come today when I am with you?
Hayyam: I wanted to show to these sea waves that I don’t need you now! Look! I have been perfect today; I have found the most beautiful waves in my life forever!
Hayyam: pari are you happy?...... Now ask same question from me too?
Pari: are you happy?
Hayyam: beyond your expectations….thank you pari for everything!
Hayyam: promise me that you won’t leave me?
Pari: I promise you……..)
He wiped his tears, consoled his sobs while gazing to sun which was diging in darkness behind clouds and there was left nothing except Emptiness and Darkness!
When the cold breeze passes through my ears;
It sounds like your voice.
When a rain droplet touches my body;
It feels like your touch.
Whenever I turn back to find you;
The only thing I could feel is EMPTINESS….!!!!!
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