The Way Things Flow

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

"Maybe the day I couldn't ignore the huge void in my heart any longer has finally came. The day I won't be able to ignore loneliness any longer and the strong fear of hating myself even more. Perhaps I'm slowly plundering into the darkness.

Will I still be able to say "I'm fine" or "It's alright" or "I'm used to it" afterward?

I think not. "

Chapter 1 (v.1) - The Way Things Flow

Submitted: July 20, 2014

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'Prologue' 

I knew nothing wasn't go to change that easily.

It happened everywhere I go the same thing just kept occuring: another failure followed by another failure. Nothing felt right at all and I use this excuse to blame life. However, the inescapable reality was that the responsbility was still mine to accept.

Even though it wasn't always my fault, I looked past the mistake. It wasn't the best decision but to avoid further conflincts, I ignored it. I'd rather choose to carry the burden alone by myself than watching others suffer along. 

This was the way things flow. 

 

Just a few days ago, my boyfriend confessed he'd started liking someone else. We have been dating for a while but I was already mentally prepared for it. Since I wasn't that interested in dating from the start, what I did might've been crucial since we weren't even compatiable.  

I felt like the one whose cheating on him instead. However, if I'd held on, none of this would've advanced either way. The way he speaks about the other girl tells me he has alot of feelings for her and being very considerate, I thought that if I let him go and it would make him happy then I'm happy for them too. 

What was left between us was nothing more than friends or memories. 

Of course, our break up shocked a lot of people the following day. I told my friends what happened and they said I'm "being too nice, "easy on the mind" and letting others take over my kindness. None of their commentaries effected me though. 

I'd never thought of approaching my ex-boyfriend afterward. Somehow I didn't understand the pain in my chest after the split. Normally, I would've been able to surpress my emotions but then I did feel a brief sentimental. 

 

Maybe the day I couldn't ignore the huge void in my heart any longer has finally came. The day I won't be able to ignore loneliness any longer and the strong fear of hating myself even more. Perhaps I'm slowly plundering into the darkness. 

Will I still be able to say "I'm fine" or "It's alright" or "I'm used to it" afterward?

I think not. 

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A/N: So, I'm super sorry if my work is lame or wasn't in its best quality. I havne't wrote stories in ages and my writing skill's sort of rough. I promise that the story will get better and if you have any advice, please do leave it in the commentary below. It will definitely need some editting so I apologized again. Thank you. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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