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Who believes that the world is always out to get them?

not I, since I believe I decide...

I just have to conquer myself... Not Hard...


I linger at the mirror, a reflection in my view;
I wish you to be nearer; I sigh & think of you...
A promise I comply with; From deep within my soul;
5 things to say: Not myth, to compliment my goal...
How well I have remembered, the way he made me feel;
My self-worth he tendered; My honor makes it real...
This poem I freely offer... Cement to strengthen wall;
Advise that I do profer; Always ever conquer all.

Dedicated this night to one whose promise I honor...



"If you can't win the battle with yourselves to honestly look in the mirror for the 90 day challenge..." He said, slowly & clearly, "...Then go on home & never come back...I don't have time for you..." With that he pointed at the sign on the wall on which was printed in big letters;

"She who can not win in the battle over her own self will never win in any contest or competition with others, since she's already given up the fight..."

Then, nodding his head, he gave a little gesture with his hand, turned & slowly walked back through the same door he had just come in... It was very sudden, leaving most of us to stare at his more than attractive backside as he turned & walked away...

Surprisingly, more than half of the very lovely ladies still with us here in the room, started whispering negative comments to one another, & most immediately left to go home... They were saying things like; "This is crazy", "How can he ask us to do something so stupid sounding as that?" "I think this guy's nuts..." "Let's get out of here..." "I don't think I can handle that..."  "Are you going to put up with this sh*t..." "I can not take that much time every morning to do something as silly as to look in the mirror & stand there thinking up stuff about myself..." "Who does this jerk think he is anyway?" "I thought we'd get layed..." "I think it's a scam..." "I don't know, I don't think it's worth it..."  "My parents told me it'd be something like this..."

I happened to be very close to the door he walked through as he left, & I watched him out of the corner of my eye... ...He was laughing... It made me mad, the door was unlocked, so I followed him, & as soon as I had left the room, the door having closed behind me, he stopped & asked, without turning around, "Why did you follow me little one?"

I suddenly had lots of butterfly's in my stomach... 'I thought I saw you laughing, & it kind of made me mad...' "Good for you", he said, "There's hope then, that at least one of all these women who think that they truly want something, is worthy & capable of actually getting it... I'm impressed with you little one, but, I have to leave you now... You have yet to prove yourself, & are still not ready for the rewards that your search for something better will eventually bring..."

'But why did you laugh at us?' I questioned, not wanting to see him go, "You misunderstand my sweet, I'm not laughing at you, or at any of you, only the silly comments, they always make... The lack of desire... They say they want to grow, to get better, to recieve love, & know how to give it... Yet they are not even willing to take on the task of self-mastery... To conquer their poor self-images, the prisons of their own minds... Those with which they hold themselves prisoners... These very things that are the most damaging... They consist of the worst & biggest things that are, in fact, holding them back from achieveing their greatest achievements. Also, the very things others judge them by, the things that keep them from being treated better, from recieving higher wages, & getting more working hours on their jobs... Those doubts & fears stop them from seeing more envious looks from other women, & getting more attention from men... Everything... Most just don't get it... Will you...?"

He didn't wait for a reply, he just walked through another door, a locked door, but I caught a glimpse of the room, it was dark, & it had a one-way glass mirror, through which he sat & watched the women in the other room...

I made a mental determination, I'd win this competition... No one could stop me, since it was a battle of the wills more than anything else, & I had plenty of will... (When I set my mind to it...) I couldn't help turning my head back however, to look back at the mirror... Just one little look..., But, I'm afraid I didn't feel very sure of myself, when I thought I heard again the little laugh of the Master as he caught me looking back, & he sensed my self doubt... Why do I do those kinds of things? Am I really that weak? ...I won't lose the battle within me, I told myself... I can't; I need to grow, I need to feel better about me...


"...Control of one's self first... Then looking to see how one can control one's environment... That is the only way to true success..."


If you are liking this series, I'd like to have your feedback & comments... I don't have much time right now, so I'm only going to continue if I see that there seems to be a good demand for it...





Submitted: May 27, 2015

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I have never quiet read something like this, its wonderful though.

Thu, October 9th, 2014 7:31pm


Glad you're liking it... Lot's of it was you inspired...

Tue, October 14th, 2014 1:17am


I bet she'll win the competition. You have an unique way of writing, which I like. It's refreshing to read something different from time to time.

Tue, May 26th, 2015 3:41pm


You will always win against any competition as long as you stay true to the promises you make to yourself, but it also helps to have an accountability partner to help you stay on track, & stay true to your commitment to yourself!

Tue, May 26th, 2015 5:42pm


I like that woman
And u are a good observer of human behaviour
The little details and all ... its real and interestingagain

Mon, December 19th, 2016 2:22pm


That woman is YOU, if you apply the principles taught, & if so, you are blessed as she is! You deserve rich blessings, & to know who you are!

Mon, December 19th, 2016 7:51am


Yay, someone who develops a plot!!!!!!!!! I'm truly hooked....probably going to read all of this tonight..... but I also need to write..... -_-

Mon, April 3rd, 2017 4:29am


Thank you truly for your support, your superb comment, & for taking the time to visit me & read & share in my story! Your Princess is showing!!

Mon, April 3rd, 2017 12:53am


Another interesting and different chapter. I for one lack self-confidence in myself, I don't know if I could be as brave as her.

Wed, June 7th, 2017 5:36am


You can do ANYTHING that you decide that you want to do! My sweet Princess, you are the Royal daughter of a Heavenly King! YOU can do ANYTHING you can believe that you can do!

Tue, June 6th, 2017 11:33pm


This is amazing and interesting! :) I feel like I could read this everyday :)

Thu, September 21st, 2017 12:19pm


Thank you, my new friend, for your visit! Will you return to read some more?

Thu, September 21st, 2017 9:10pm


No problem and yes I will :)

Fri, September 22nd, 2017 4:33pm


Glad to hear that!

Fri, September 22nd, 2017 4:52pm


This left me in a stumped and I reread it twice so I can fully contemplate what he meant. This chapter caught my interest the most, so I let myself in and found myself reading. You have a very unique way of portraying your words here. I like how you add a poem, conveying as a message and foreshadowing of what's to come. Then in bold every time, it echoes the theme of the story. I'm thinking in order to win the contest you must be true to yourself and not follow like a docile sheep. The mirror I believe you point out is don't forget who you are and your own opinions. When the young lady boldly venture out, it takes a lot guts, because your singled out. Or when he laughed, the mirror is an analogy to watch for expression, and the laughing did and not the guy's words. No doubt she's going to win this contest, I just think she has to grow and have a positive outlook.

Fri, August 3rd, 2018 6:30am


I’m glad you see so much here... Yet, I would that you even look deeper my newest Princess friend, applying the words you read to your own life & circumstances! I assure you, in no uncertain terms, that YOU, & ALL of you, who take this challenge seriously & literally, will be blessed, will be given more light & knowledge about your own self, & will be strengthened beyond anything that you can imagine! Will YOU, see you? Will you gain the prize? Will you become the Princess Bride, that you truly are inside?

Fri, August 3rd, 2018 10:46pm


I love your writings. I don't look in mirrors. I don't like what I see. I wish to be strong like your characters. Great job!

Wed, February 13th, 2019 3:26am


How can growth occur if you are unwilling to change? Isn’t a brighter & better future worth a bit of discomfort in the present?

Thu, February 14th, 2019 2:22am


controling yourself is good but in a foster home no

Sat, June 6th, 2020 4:47am

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