Today has been pure crap for me. My head wasn't in school, my mind was on Caylee. How bad I want her back, I don't want to lose her. Mackenzie tried cheering me up. That night because
it was a Friday I went to the beach bonfire with the rest of the gang. "Hey Ash." Allie said when I showed up I could tell she has been texting Caylee "Sup?" I asked and I went to the guys "Hey
Ash! Long time no see!" Nick said, I use to come to this thing every weekend and I would get tore up. "Want a beer?" Nick asked he had a Budlight in his hand, I had Caylee's voice in my head saying
"Don't do it" But because I'm trying to forget about her "Yes." I said and he handed it to me. "So what made you decide to come tonight?" Nick asked "Oh I needed a change. I needed a break." I said
"You and that uptight chick break up?" Nick asked "She isn't uptight." I said "Yeah." Mackenzie said and I shot her a look. "Sorry. But you're fair game now honey." Mackenzie said and I just shook
By ten o'clock I was already wasted. It has been since June since I stopped drinking so the beer really got to me quickly. Mackenzie walked up "Dude, you're crunk." Mackenzie
said "Nope." I said "Go home, you're drunk." Mackenzie said and I shook my head. "Can we go walking on the beach?" I asked and Mackenzie nodded "Did you make up your mind yet?" Mackenzie asked "No
I haven't." I said "But you should have." Mackenzie said "No."I said and she nodded. I looked at my phone and it was vibrating, I looked at the caller ID "Caylee" "Hello?" I asked "Hi." Caylee said
"Are you okay?" She asked "NO. I mean yes." I said "You're drunk aren't you?" Caylee asked "No. YEs." I said "Forget this. I was going to give you another chance but now no." Caylee said and
she hung up. I looked at Mackenzie "I blew it." I said and she handed me a cup "Vodka." She said and I gulped it down.
I woke up the next morning in my own bed. With a pounding headache and an upset stomach. "Ash?" Aunt Alice asked "Yes?" I asked even though it killed me "We need to talk." She said
"How did I get home?" I asked after the vodka I don't remember anything so far. "Mackenzie and Nick brought you home. Uncle Carl is on his way up." She said "How many beer did you drink?" Uncle
Carl asked "Five that I know of, one thing of Vodka." I said "What made you decide to drink?" Uncle Carl asked "Caylee and Ashton are no longer a couple." Aunt Alice said "Son, that is still no
excuse." Uncle Carl said "I know. She hates me even more now." I said "Well you are going to be mad at us." Aunt Alice said and I looked at her "No cell phone, no car keys, no
going out, school and here. That's it." Aunt Alice said "For two weeks." Uncle Carl said and I nodded I deserved that. "Can I at least text Caylee a message?" I asked "YEah." Aunt Alice said and I
To Caylee:I am so sorry about all that has happened. I'm grounded for two weeks, but once I'm ungrounded I'm bugging you. I want us to work out. I know you are mad at me
right now but I truly do love you Caylee. You are all I want. You are the girl for me. I was stupid. I shouldn't have kissed Mackenzie, she's a friend. You are my best friend, my lover, my soul
mate, my better half. Please forgive me. Anyways I will text you when I'm ungrounded. I love you Caylee.
I get woken up at five am to a text, I hung up on Ashton last night after he was drinking. Ashton: I am so sorry about all that has happened. I'm grounded for two weeks, but once I'm
ungrounded I'm bugging you. I want us to work out. I know you are mad at me right now but I truly do love you Caylee. You are all I want. You are the girl for me. I was stupid. I shouldn't have
kissed Mackenzie, she's a friend. You are my best friend, my lover, my soul mate, my better half. Please forgive me. Anyways I will text you when I'm ungrounded. I love you Caylee. I rolled my eyes
at the text, but I do want to talk to him. I do love him. I slowly got up and I put my contacts in and I change into my dance clothes with my arieal shoes and I go leave a note for my mom.
After I leave I go to the dance studio and I put the Give Me Love song on and I close my eyes and I begin working on my dance move for the audition I'm working on. I push myself to my
limits and then beyond that. I don't even realize when somebody walks in. "You are for sure going to get in!" Madam Casey said and I looked up "Sorry, I didn't think you would mind." I said "No, I
have always told you girls you are welcome anytime." She said I went over to my phone and looked it was nine am, I have been working on my dance for three hours. "You are welcome to stay." Madam
Casey said "Thank you but I need to go home." I said "Care to run it one more time? I came in half way." She said and I nodded, I closed my eyes to picture her not being here. I went through
it as if I was right in front of the judges. "You did great! You are going to do great!" Madam Casey said and I nodded "Thank you. I will see you around one." I said and she smiled at me.
I go home and all the family including Lauren is at the breakfast table "Morning." I said and they smiled. I sat beside Liam and Lauren "Guess what." My mom said "What?" I asked "Jason
is coming today." My mom said and I nodded, Bryson, Sean, and Landon all smiled at that. "Good." I said and she smiled at me. "What time? I have dance from 1-3." I said "Around four." My mom said
and I nodded. After breakfast which I didn't touch anything but my orange juice. I went to my room and Lauren followed me "Are you okay?" She asked me "Yes." I said "Caylee Marie don't
give me that bull of an answer." She said and I smiled at her "This is why you are my best friend." I said and she smiled at me "No I'm not. Ashton texted me this morning. He's sorry, he
loves me. That line." I said "It's not a line." Lauren said and I rolled my eyes at her. "Don't disagree with me. I'm pregnant." Lauren said and I giggled "Yes you are. Hope!" I said speaking
to her stomach.
Not only was I without my technology devices I had to do yard work all day with a major hangover. I let Hoss outside all day while I did the yardwork, it's October but it's still in
the high 70's low 80's. No matter what I'm doing Caylee is still on my mind. I just hope I can work it out with her when I'm ungrounded finally. A car pull up, a car I recognize as my mother's and
I gulp. "Ashton Jacob Wakefield." My mother said sternly and I put down the tool and I looked at her "Yes ma'am?" I asked putting on my southern charm although I know it wouldn't work. "How could
you? What were you thinking? You saw me. You know how hard it is." My mom said "Yes ma'am I know. I screwed up." I said "I'm just glad you didn't drive home." She said "I'm sorry mom." I said
"Please don't do anything like that again." My mom said "Yes ma'am I won't." I said and she smiled at me "How long are you grounded for?" She asked me "Two weeks" I said "Not long enough."
She said "Mom don't!" I said and she laughed at me "I know. I know." She said and I smiled at her "I love you mom." I said "I love you too. I have to pick up your siblings." She said and I waved
It's Friday night and I'm off of work, so I'm just hanging out with Caylee in our bedroom with our fake babies. I'm in the rocking chair next to the baby crib "Can you believe next
week I'm twenty weeks?" I asked and Caylee smiled at me "I know. This year is flying by." Caylee said "Do you think this will work?" I asked "Lauren you worry too much. Yes it will. You have love
and support from all of us." Caylee said and I smiled at her "I mean my own mom hasn't even contacted me yet to see how I am, how her grandchild is, what her grandchild is. Your mom on the other
hand as already went out and bought everything Hope is going to need." I said and Caylee smiled at me. I haven't talked to Nate since I told him the sex, he has avoided me which I don't really mind
because I don't want him around Hope. It feels good spending some quality girl time with Caylee, no guys, no work. "Do your dance!"I said and Caylee nodded and she put on Give Me Love,
and she worked on her dance and I giggled at her.
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