Everlasting Breath

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Fantasy  |  House: Booksie Classic

Chapter 19 (v.1) - Second Thoughts

Submitted: September 27, 2008

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Submitted: September 27, 2008



Chapter 19: Second Thoughts

“Victoria!” A voice screamed in my dreams.

I dreamt of a beautiful place; a place in the clouds. Dante and I were the only ones there, cuddling together in the white castle of the sky.

I felt something move inside of me. I looked down with a puzzled expression and saw something kick inside of me.

In a split second, my stomach exploded and blood flew all over Dante’s face.

My eyes shot open and I lay there, breathing heavily and sweating.

“Are you okay?” Dante asked. I realized I was dreaming. I knew I could relax now, none of it was real. Good.

“I was just dreaming?” I sighed, “Good.”

“You passed out,” Dante whispered.

I looked around to see the faces of my family staring down on me. I propped myself up slowly with my arms and looked around. The back of my head throbbed and I put my hand to it lightly, wincing.

“Are you okay?” He asked again.

“I’m fine if this is all a dream.”

“I don’t know what’s going on, Victoria, but we’ll figure this out,” he said, grabbing me and cradling me in his arms.

I stood up swiftly, leaving Dante kneeling on the ground. Okay, if this wasn’t a dream, what is happening to me? I can’t possibly be pregnant, can I?

“Can I really be pregnant?” I asked, teary-eyed.

“I’m afraid you can, kid,” my dad said sorrowful. I knew it broke his heart to find that I didn’t wait until I was married, but then again, who did anymore? I felt sick to my stomach.

“This can’t be happening.”

“Maybe it’s because we’ve found that vampires are more human than we’ve thought. I can cry, can’t I? That means that my body holds liquids, am I right?”

I nodded. I couldn’t believe that I was pregnant. Sure, I’d changed my mind about kids and Dante and I had been talking about it, but now that it was happening, I was changing my mind all over again.

“I don’t know if I can do this,” I whispered, looking at my stomach.

Dante stood up and hugged me tightly. I hugged him back with just a little resentment. I knew that half of this was my fault, but I couldn’t help being mad that we weren’t more careful.

“Why weren’t we more protected?” I asked in his shirt.

“I don’t know. I guess this is our gift,” he said, backing away and looking into my eyes.

I felt my knees give out when he looked at me. I’d almost forgotten how beautiful those eyes were, sparkling in any type of light.

“I’ll be okay. I’m just a little freaked out right now.”

“I understand.”

“Honey, why didn’t you tell me earlier?!” My mom asked, running forward and hugging me.

“I didn’t know I was, mom. I would have told you if I knew. You know that.”

“Of course. I’m sorry, Victoria. I’m happy for you, really, I am, but I don’t even know this man. How am I supposed to be fine with my only daughter having a vampire’s baby?”

“Trust me, mom. I’ll be fine. I’ve been through much worse than finding out I’m pregnant.”

Her eyes widened. “Sweetie, you have no idea what you’re in for.”

“I’ll be fine, believe me.”

She nodded and backed away. We all just stood there, looking down at the ground, thoughts racing in our heads.

“I’m going to go out back,” I said.

They all nodded and watched as I walked slowly out the door. I walked to the back yard and took my normal resting spot. I sat on the small stone porch, looking out into the woods.

I stared all day it seemed like; not a thought running through my head. I needed some peace right now, and it seemed like everyone was respecting that.

The kids stayed inside all day, and Dante never came out to see if I was alright. I needed my alone time right now.

I watched as the sky changed colors from blue to pink, from orange to purple. Tonight was beautiful and I sat under the stars, peering up at the moonlight.

It poured across the yard lightly and danced on my skin, making me look even paler; if that is possible.

I didn’t think about being pregnant, I didn’t think about the wedding, and I didn’t think about my mother being alive. Call me selfish, but I only thought of one thing-myself.

After awhile, I curled myself into a ball, closing my eyes. I sat there, blank-minded and scared.

“Are you tired yet, my love? I’m sorry to disturb you, but I thought you might want your rest.”

I stayed there with the thoughts rushing back into my mind like a dam had been broken.

I heard someone sit next to me and felt them wrap their arms around me, kissing my hair.

“I love you and I promise we’ll get through this. I promise with all of my soul that you will be okay,” he whispered in my ear.

“I’m just scared!” I grabbed him tightly, bawling once again.

“I know, I am too. I don’t know what is going to happen with this baby, Victoria. But I do know one thing; it will be the most magnificent child to ever grace this earth.”

I looked up at his face, smiling lightly and nodded. His eyes were filled with tears as well and we sat there for a long while, crying in each other’s arms.

I wiped his crystal tears with my hands and grabbed his face, staring at him. I knew it would be okay and I knew he wouldn’t rest until I was safe, but I was still worried out of my mind.

“I wanted to have kids, Dante, but now that I’m pregnant, I just don’t know.”

“I know, I feel the same way.”

“But, I can’t get rid of it, I just can’t.”

“I will stand by your decision, whatever that may be, my love. Just know that this isn’t going to be easy. I’m not sure what type of creature will be growing, but if there is a chance of it killing you, I will rip it out with my bare hands.”

“Kill me?” I asked, terrified. I hadn’t thought of anything like that before. How would a baby kill me? How could that be possible? Hopefully it would turn out fine and everything would go back to normal.

“The only reason I say that is because I’m not sure of what the baby is, yet. I’m not sure if it is like you-half-vampire, half-darkling, or if it is all vampire, or if it’s just darkling. Do you understand?”

“Oh, okay. Wow, there’s a lot riding on this, isn’t there.”

“Your life, my love.”

Shortly after, he followed me upstairs and I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

I worried all night with my eyes fluttering under their lids. My mind was in a rush of thoughts and I couldn’t stop dreaming about different ways the baby would kill me.

Only one dream throughout the night was pleasant.

I was in a hospital bed, looking at my mother, father, Dante, Nikki, and Xavier. They all waited for something, but I wasn’t sure what it was.

A nurse then walked in, holding a bundle in her arms. She smiled brightly and held the thing out to me.

I took it into my arms and stared at it for a moment.

“It’s a beautiful baby girl,” she said.

I smiled and looked back down to her. She had a small round face and a cute little button-nose. She was glorious. Her cheeks were flushed and she sat there, smiling back at me.

Her hair was dark brown and her eyes were a bright blue-the color of baby’s eyes just after they were born. I loved her. I wanted to take her home with me and never leave her side.

I didn’t want the dream to ever end, but when morning came, my dream disappeared along with my thoughts of peace.

“Good morning, love,” Dante greeted me with a smile as he did every morning.

I hugged and kissed him and got up out of bed, walking to the closet for something to wear. He followed after me with a worried expression and watched as I changed into my normal attire.

I moseyed downstairs and made myself some cereal, eating it slowly. Dante sat next to me, staring at me until I picked up my bowl, pushed in my seat, and rinsed my dish out in the sink.

He grabbed my arm softly and turned me around to look at him.

“Tell me what you’re thinking.”

“I really don’t know anymore, Dante.”

“Do you want this baby, or not?”

I stood there, staring at him.

“Well, if the baby is fine and everything is going to be okay, then I want it. If it is going to come out as a monster and kill me, then I want it out right now.”

“This is a dilemma, indeed,” he whispered.

“I wish I knew what would happen, but until I do, I’m going to be freaking out.”

He nodded and led me to the couch. I looked around, wondering where everyone was.

“Your mother and father slept in the extra room, last night.”

I smiled. Finally, they were getting along. Yesterday had been a very long day and my mother seemed like she wasn’t’ ever going to forgive him.

“Listen,” he said, locking our fingers together, “Everything will be fine. You know, I thought I would be the one who couldn’t deal with this.”

“I know, I’m stronger than this worrying, but I can’t help it! I just want to know, Dante. I want to know that everything will be okay.”

“But isn’t surprise one of the beauties of life, my love?”

“Sure, sometimes. But don’t you want to know? Don’t you worry about my safety?”

“Of course I do! But, I also know that you can handle anything and this baby isn’t stronger than you. I know this, Victoria.”

I looked down at our hands. I knew he was right; what was I doing worrying about something that was so wonderful? We would have a beautiful baby to call our own. Sure, Xavier and Nikki were ours now, but they weren’t ours. This baby is something that we have created together and it would be just perfect.

“You’re right,” I murmured, “I am stronger than this. I’m done worrying.”

“That’s my girl,” he beamed.

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