the unknown of bipolar & psychosis
i have been dealing with bipolar & psychosis now for several years. i’ve been told that i have always had bipolar but the psychosis didn’t show up till later in life. living with this disease and not knowing you have it is mind blowing in itself. i worked hard growing up and was multitasking when it came to doing things. one of my down falls was getting along with people. i felt everyone should be working just as hard as i am and they have no excuse not to. a lot of that mindset came from watching my dad work many hours of overtime and traveling around and such. i had no idea that working a person so hard could actually cause mental and physical problems. i remember working with a older man who was so enthralled in his work that he happened to get an infection from a trip he went on and came back to work and never recouped from it because it ended up killing him. if he could of taken time off work to try to recover he might have made it. some people can not handle too much stress of any kind or it could cause severe repercussions. we live in a society today that a lot of people have to work two jobs just to get by and put food on the table. i know what it’s like to work two jobs and it’s not easy nor fun. it is hard to make a living especially if your doing it alone, let alone with children or having to take care of someone else. i was fully capable of taking care of myself, at the time. i was very stubborn when it came to needing other people’s help or people in general. i was working so hard trying to make my way to the top. all along watching cheaters, liars, and manipulators make their way to the top. like the saying goes “fake it, till you make it”. except i was getting really tired of watching this type of…
