The Unfilled Blank

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Literary Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

the unfilled blank

You solemnly walked through up a gravel pathway along with half a dozen others clad in black. Perhaps it was raining. I heard once that the rain is the tears of angels weeping for what they never said but perhaps that day they wept for me. Maybe it was bright sunshine with the odd wispy cloud drifting lazily across the sky. The men’s jackets were removed and resting folded in half over their arms. Or the sky was that dull grey infinite blanket of cloud, never quite moving but never quite still, in a weird distorted sort of limbo.

When you reached the door and slid into a seat, perhaps the room was full or only a few. The vicar stepped up to the pulpit and sadly spared a glance at the casket next to him. Maybe there were prays to be said or he was just there to oversee the show and a few people were lined up and waited patiently for their turn to make a long eulogy exonerating good qualities and deeds and memories. After all you never speak ill of the dead. They were people who never gave a damn or made my life hell. They’ll never accept their portion of the blame. Perhaps there were only one or two who had tear stained cheeks and fond words, and did nothing but blame themselves. There may have been a mix of the two, some would have artistically dabbed the corners of their eyes and said kind words while others held back sobs from echoing around the room.

You might have had to file past the casket and trailed a hand or fingertips lightly and briefly over the dark coloured wood. A few people hesitated a moment before being forced on by the person behind then or led away by the person in front, either way they were hurried on. Almost as if death were catching, a disease you could outrun, but eventually everyone’s chance of survival drops to zero. Or perhaps it was the fear that death would catch up to you rather than death itself, as it were a thing to be avoided and shoved to the back of your mind and the darkest recesses of your thoughts, to be ignored but always there.

At the end of the service you mumbled your condolences to the family, not quite able to look any of them in the eye. Maybe it wasn’t the fact that I died which stopped you. It was the fact that I wasn’t old, fragile, ill or even in an accident of some kind. I was young and healthy and apparently had everything going for me. That would be the exact reason my name won’t be mentioned once people had mourned and moved. It would be the fact neither you nor anyone else could have seen a reason for my death. No one could have seen or predicted my death.

My name won’t be mentioned but perhaps in those silent moments you’d occasionally think back and remember me. A sad memory but a memory none the less.

You’ll remember the question you asked always yourself on the day of my funeral, “What is so wrong that she wanted to die….”

A blank that won’t ever be filled.


Submitted: February 18, 2012

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arun

Awesome. Stunning plot. I'd say one of the best plots! Nice and superior usage of language.
It was highly professional--the words, style, flow! All are! Felt like reading a published author.
Keep writing.
Take care :)

Sat, February 18th, 2012 6:53pm

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Awww thank you!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 8:19am

Stormbird Throneshaker

I've been to a few funerals here lately, I was there again, in your story. It grabs you right up til you leave the funeral home with questions running through your mind. Excellent writing.

Sat, February 18th, 2012 7:43pm

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I'm sorry. Thank you!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 8:49am

coolkatz0

Omg I love this much! It's amazing, I've been to a funeral with them exact thoughts running through my head about her. This was great, so emotional and deep. I love it! Xx

Sat, February 18th, 2012 8:06pm

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Thank you!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 8:50am

chikapr

Brilliantly written
i absolutely loved it!!!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 4:46am

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Thank you!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 8:53am

a9fc8yt3kd

Tragic and beautiful!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 8:07am

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Thank you!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 8:53am

Yosuf

I like it.

It's very unique and amazing, though, my opinion doesn't really matter, because, I'm not a very good writer, but I've absolutely loved it, I extremely cherish and praise it, this is one beautiful short story.

I've never been to a funeral, so, I don't know what you meant by that question...but I'm sure someday, I may be able to understand the true and beautiful meaning of this short story.

You should keep on writing more, as I was swept away with the amazingness of this short story. I hope that you may write more at the soonest time.

I eulogize it, I love it.

Sun, February 19th, 2012 11:47am

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Thank you! I hope would never have to...

Sun, February 19th, 2012 8:58am

bobthebuilder

Wow, what a powerful and moving piece. Very well done.

Sun, February 19th, 2012 2:14pm

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Thank you!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 8:59am

MysteryGirl15

i absolutly love it!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 10:47pm

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Thank you!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 3:00pm

eludingdarling

Your talent never ceases to surprise me. Honestly, you encourage me to write something so beautiful and meaningful. If you are ever to publish, please inform me because I would purchase it in a heartbeat. Words can never express how much respect I hold for you and your depiction of the truth some are afraid to acknowledge. In all, I'm amazed. *applause*

Mon, February 20th, 2012 3:00am

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Awww thank you! You really just made my day:) hehe really?you think my work's that good!

Sun, February 19th, 2012 11:51pm

GigattGirl

Very well written lovely :)

Mon, February 20th, 2012 9:25pm

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Thank you!

Mon, February 20th, 2012 2:24pm

sweet agony xo

wow .

Tue, February 21st, 2012 10:56pm

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Thank you!

Tue, February 21st, 2012 2:57pm

glitter snow426

oh wow, such a huge light in the sky, the biggest roar of thunders, gigantic splash from an ocean, this is soooooooo good, take a well deserved applauds, you are a wonderful deep writer, down to earth greatness, special thrill and INCREDIBLE WORK, SO POLISHED, CLEAR AND RADIANT!!!

Wed, February 22nd, 2012 3:57pm

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Awww Thank you!

Wed, February 22nd, 2012 11:07am

unoticedchloeeee

wow, that was amazing :) beautiful use of languge and emotion , you are very talented :D you should really turn it into a novel , towards the end i was like AHHH i must know more !!! please please please think about extending this amazing piece :D xxx chloe xxx

Sat, February 25th, 2012 12:43pm

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Awww thank you!

Sat, February 25th, 2012 5:18am

Pharaoh888

That hurt me where I live, a gripping plot, highly emotional words, and colorful descriptions. You have a kind taste when it comes to genres like these, keep moving forward, this is an amazing piece of writing.

Sun, February 26th, 2012 9:32am

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Thank you!

Mon, February 27th, 2012 12:06pm

VampireCigk

beautiful short story! im seriously close to tears

Sun, February 26th, 2012 7:41pm

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Thank you!

Mon, February 27th, 2012 12:09pm

LupusAmator

Oh wow, this was amazing!! The best short story I have ever read, hands down. I'm not kidding, I loved this. I think this could be published! KMU for the same reasons as ever, please?

Tue, February 28th, 2012 7:48pm

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Awww thank you! Of course!

Tue, February 28th, 2012 12:18pm

HeartBreaker1996

I felt like I was there, like really there. Thats how good it was. Yet another amazing piece :)> KMU?

Tue, April 10th, 2012 8:58am

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hehe :P Thank you! :) Of course :D

Fri, April 13th, 2012 6:51am

emilyleffler

May I start with:
This is such a powerful piece that it moved me to tears.
I have one complaint, however, but it seems I always do. I would like to know how she died. Maybe a memory could've portrayed it best, or a whisper among the crowd of funeral goers, but I am unsatisfied. I want to know more.
It is written beautifully. I loved it.

Mon, May 7th, 2012 8:01pm

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Thank you! But there is a reason I left how she died out. When people talk about suicide more often than not they leave out how they died but rather focus on the why which is why I left it out.

Tue, May 8th, 2012 10:24am

Edgar Dark Season

Excellent composition and clarity of theme and expression. Ten thumbs up!!

Mon, July 30th, 2012 10:15am

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thank you :)

Tue, July 31st, 2012 1:15pm

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