It Takes One Decision

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Literary Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

One choice, one decision, a lifetime of regrets.






She stared at her hands, grief washing over her. It didn't make sense, not at all. How could she miss someone she'd never met, never touched or held? Tears pooled in her dark brown eyes but she made no effort to wipe them away. She placed her hand on her flat stomach, wondering why she felt so torn inside. This was supposed to fix her problems, make them go away. So why did she feel even worse than she did before?

~*~*~

She glared at the doctor, not believing what he was telling her. What did he mean, she couldn't have more kids? She was a perfectly healthy woman, for crying out loud! She looked down at the ground and her mind drifted back to a day very much like this one five years earlier. The pain and anguish came back to her, gripping her heart. She thought she'd made the right decision. But now, when her and her husband were ready to have kids, she couldn't have them.

~*~*~

She layed on her bed, staring vacantly up at the ceiling as memories of the past assailed her like a ghost haunts an old house. The walls of her bedroom, where pictures of a family should be up, were painfully empty. When she should be waiting for a phone call saying she had a new grandchild, the lines were silent, never to be heard. Her eyes stung with tears, regret weighing her down. A child's laughter never brightened her home, never brought smiles to her face. She didn't have a daughter who gave her flowers just because, or a son who told her she was beautiful. Her arms were empty, and always would be.

Twenty years. Twenty years of loneliness, pain, and regret. Twenty years of wishing she could go back to that one day that changed her life forever. She thought it wouldn't effect her, thought it was for the best. Back then, she wasn't ready for kids, she hadn't even finished high school. She had a whole life ahead of her, or so she thought.

Slowly, she sat up and stared out the window, not really seeing anything. She missed the baby she never held, missed the cries she never heard. She missed the toddler she never read stories to, missed the kid she never taught how to share. When moms were putting their child on the bus for the first time, she was watching on the sidelines, no child to kiss goodbye. When she should've been shedding tears as her 'baby' went off to college, she was sitting at the kitchen table, eating her meals alone. She could've had grandchildren by now, but all she had was a book full lonely moments and empty days, a scrapbook that was never used. And all because she wasn't ready to deal with the life that had once grown inside her. If only she could've known that the rest of her life depended on that one, single decision.


Submitted: May 27, 2011

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Shanil

decent, i liked it

Fri, May 27th, 2011 11:31pm

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thanks so much for reading :)

Fri, May 27th, 2011 4:55pm

cutiepiex

So can she not have kids because she had an abortion? Because, if so, I honestly don't feel any sympathy for her. I think that if you're willing to murder a child because you think you aren't ready then you shouldn't have had sex and you don't deserve to have a child ever. Sorry for my rant but abortions are sick. Anyway, you did a good job on this, I suppose it could be emotional to someone who feels for the character.

Sat, May 28th, 2011 6:19pm

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I agree with you totally. My reason for writing this is to get girls to think about what abortion does, because it isn't pretty. In the end, they are worse off than they were before the abortion. There is nooo reason for girls to have abortions.

Sat, May 28th, 2011 12:07pm

arun

She lay on the bed. Not layed. 'Lie' is the most confusing english verb... Be careful in using it.

If she can't have a child, you being the author, tell her adopt someone.

Ha ha... Really great writing...
All the best.
Keep writing.

Sun, May 29th, 2011 6:11pm

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haha yah when i was at that part i was like 'which one is it?!', but apparently i went with the wrong one :p haha. and yeah, i could have done that but i think i could center on that in a different piece of writing. on this piece i wanted to center on the heartache abortion brings.

Sun, May 29th, 2011 8:26pm

BriaTaylor

While I am extremely pro-choice, I do feel the speaker's emotion and can understand her hurt and suffering. Very good use of emotion

Thu, June 2nd, 2011 7:34pm

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thank you

Thu, June 2nd, 2011 12:49pm

BriaTaylor

And not to start a fight or anything, which I hope this doesn't, but there are PLENTY of reasons to have abortions. Read my poem "Young Folks" for one good reason.

Thu, June 2nd, 2011 7:35pm

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I disagree with you. but i will read your poem anyways

Thu, June 2nd, 2011 12:51pm

BriaTaylor

Unless you've truly been put in the position and lived the experience, you can't really write an opinion piece about how someone would feel afterwards unless you yourself know.

Thu, June 2nd, 2011 7:37pm

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i have never been in this position before so yes, i don't really know how someone would feel. it is probably different with each person, depending on circumstances. however, i do know people like this woman, including people in my family, so i have a pretty good idea of what im talking about..at least from the position of this family member and the people i know

Thu, June 2nd, 2011 12:54pm

chloeallgrownup

i agree with bria taylor that there r resons for abortions, but anyways your work here was amazing. i felt the way your main charecter felt and above else that is what makes your short story stand out too me. good writing. keep it up :)

Mon, June 6th, 2011 8:24am

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okay, thank you :)

Mon, June 6th, 2011 11:24am

Samu

I had a friend the same thing happen to her, she had so many abortions she couldn't have children anymore. I don't know if the abortion had anything to do with it, but I know when she was ready to have child she couldn't. I feel for this woman, I always thought a child was something a man wanted and a woman carried. From what I've seen woman who can't have children, seem to feel they don't live a full life. They haven't fulfill their purpose.

Thu, June 9th, 2011 3:16pm

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Every woman longs for a child of her own at some point in her life. at least, that's what i've seen. it always makes me sad when i see a woman who is depressed because she can't have children for some reason. but i guess there is always adoption..though that option isn't always available to some people.

Thu, June 9th, 2011 1:05pm

AWESOME ASHMITA

gr8 work

Wed, June 29th, 2011 7:10am

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lol thanks

Thu, June 30th, 2011 9:57am

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