Father, Oh Father

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

Sexual Abuse that happened to me/Affects that has had on my life...

Since I was little you abused me,
In that wrong way of sexuality.
You wouldn’t take no for a reply,
And so I grew up hoping the abuse would die.
 
Eventually it did and so I moved on,
I left it in the empty bottle that used to have wine,
I corked, stashed it and put it down the cellar of my mind, way down,
And lived the life that became less divine.
 
You yelled at me later on because I am gay,
And tried to make me promise to never be that way.
Don’t you realize what you did to me is a factor in play,
Of why I am who I am today?
 
Then soon after that I had to vent my problems,
So I went back down to the cellar and looked at the racks of bottles.
Of pain and of suffering and finally found that one,
And I continued to look at the seven year ripe bottle for the longest time.
 
As I was putting it back for it to stay,
So as to never recall those terrible days.
Somehow my hand gave way,
And on the floor the broken pieces laid.
 
Out spilled the secrets of you,
And the cops came banging on our door soon after.
Because of that my mom then knew,
All because of the clumsiness that causes my friends laughter.
 
Father, oh father what I’m trying to say,
Is I don’t know if it was right to tell about your sin.
Or if it is right to say gay,
Is the room that I’ve stumbled in.
 
I don’t know whether to feel guilt or relief,
Or if I’ll see you again for you to see.
There are feelings inside me of pain and grief,
All because I couldn’t let that one bottle be.


Submitted: December 20, 2007

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Nixie

I like to think, if this is based on any truth that you did the right thing, and don't let grief hold you back empower yourself with it and love knowing better of it :) ~ nixie

Sun, December 23rd, 2007 3:32am

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It is based on truth and i am beginning to try to let grief go away.. part of the healing for me is to write it down and express myself

Tue, December 25th, 2007 10:13pm

stefankie

so true, similar story in my case.

Wed, February 13th, 2013 5:16pm

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