I am not the same person I was

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Submitted: March 20, 2016

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I am not the same person I was last year, nor 2 years ago. For sure not the same I was 3 years ago & definitely not the same as 4 years ago. Absolutely not the same as 5 years ago & clearly not like 6 years ago. Most importantly... I have come a long way, I am not the same person I was 14 years ago. When I was 14-20 I was outgoing enjoyed life then dated someone who cheated on me who lied to me, who accused me of cheated, I was there for him when he had his drug problem, but once he started to show up when he wanted too & disappear for month on end. Then when i was 21 - 23 year old I started dated someone who abuse me, mentally, physically, emotionally, lied to, cheated on, accused me of cheated. always told me who I can & can't hang out with, wouldn't let me see my family, always told me what to wear & what not to wear. When i was 24- 26 been through alot in this relationship too, mentally, physically, emotionally, lied to, cheated on, accused of cheated, used, always told me who I can & can't hang out with, wouldn't let me see my family & went homeless with the asshole. when I was 26 - 27 been through alot in this relationship too lied to, cheated on, accused of cheated, used. so I turned my back on the world after all that I been through, once i found out how cruel and inhumanly ppl were, I just couldn't take it any more so I gave up on everything & everyone, gave up on dating, I'm not the same person, i was a year, a month ago or even a week ago. I'm constantly changing. & its my way of discovering who i am - who i want to become. I'll be the first to admit that im not the same person i used to be, but there are reasons for why i am who i am today, ppl choose to assume they know who i am based im my past & based on what they think they know me, in all reality they dont, i have grown, endured, overcome many difficult obstacles that made me who i am today & i dont think ill ever be the same person i was years ago, i've been hurt, used, abused, cheated on. Ive been through alot of hardship & trails bcuz of the poor choices that i made decades ago, God brought me through them all & made me a stronger person. Made me a different, more wiser, more loving woman than i was before. & i'm not the doormat that i used to be, ive grown a backbone, alot of ppl would have been left with their mouth hanging open.. now that I'm about to be 30 I am a lot happier then I have been in a long time, found myself by doing a lot of soul searching, & within that time period I found myself a decent man, who respects me & who love me, who hasn't once lay his hands on me, or tell me what to do. which I am grateful..


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