The Less I Know The Better

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: January 28, 2016

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Duly in my fragile ego, I can’t bare the fact that I’m up to here in what I wrote when I was losing to the rope. A length of time it took to soak the sorrow from my marrow, mixed with far more gin and toke than I’ll ever be deposed for. And it’s sinful, burrow sink holes of the angst I left at head and heart and pain, all the more I’ll scream in vain for past to write anew. I haven’t left much for you, but it’s a tender share I’ll stake knowing I’ve shared so little too. Are you crazy to trust me? Mind I rephrase that? Am I crazy enough to let you? I trust little of this culmination we call I. I’m not in my mind to make such choices anymore. Living far gone, quickly far more rash than sights have let me sore for. My ramblings, degradation, find the shallow parts of me, find the hollow parts of me, find the shit that made me who I used to be, for me to see that I’m not on the edge, or falling over, bolting to be free. Two sides error, one side tremor, shaking fingers, toes, body, growing colder, lie my path along debris in searching, urging, grunting, pacing, facing gall and terror, searching for the key to who they meant by saying, who could be the real me. Would I know? And if I did, what should I show? With nothing to go for, but it’s a stretch. You’ll catch me going for the door. I don’t need to fight this fight anymore. I’m tired, but I implore. I’m only down an isle store, I’m only next door, I’m only home for as long as I’m needed more. But don’t expect me to answer. I gave up long ago, I gave up chasing the lore. Of hope and faith, renewal. All the things I’ll never gain, only a fool would folly speak, denouncing rules I had to keep. But duly in this fragile ego, I must bare the fact that I’m up to here in what was written, I could never beat the rope.


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