Scared to be me

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Gay and Lesbian  |  House: Booksie Classic
Knowing his father hates him, his classmates hate him, everyone is scared of him. Bruised up body cut up wrists because he doesnt want to accept that he is gay. Noah is one of his bestfriends who looks out for him, but knows nothing about Jace being gay, and liking him. Will his friend turn his back on him like everyone else?

Submitted: July 10, 2012

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The moment the blade hit the counter I knew that it was all over. Seeing the blood rush down my wrist to the stone cold floor. Past midnight no one knew how i felt, no one understands.. Being locked up inside, all my emotions towards anything, without getting yelled at.
Slamming my fist into the near wall by my face hissing out in the sudden pain.
"Fuck fuck." Repeating the words while I smashed my fist into it. Most likely would have broken a few knuckles already, not like i really care.
Feeling a light smirk drift onto my face. I’m So pathetic. Dragging my feet across the bathroom floor to slowly open the door. Hearing the floor scream at me from stepping on it, the pain I'm in I couldn’t agree with the floor more right now.
Loud snores come from a nearby room. Father. My Father who is against everything to do with gays and all of that crap like that, yeah what a hater. But really i cant blame him much, I hate me too.
Twitching my nose a bit into the air inhaling sharply. Booze again really dad that’s all he can do now a days other than get hookers and sluts to get laid. Rolling my eyes while shaking my head in disgust. What a Pig. Clicking the door behind me to my room before snapping the lock on it, so he doesn’t come in here like usual.. Those Beatings are getting worse.
Diving into my bed with such grace rolling into the covers in protection. A loud beep entering the air from my cell from the night side table. Quickly grabbing it to read a message.
From; Noah.
Hey Bud! How's it going!? Haven’t talked to you in about a week.. where have you been man! You missed a lot of school.
Noah..If he knew my feelings towards him, I bet 'Bud' wouldn't exist anymore. Who would want a gay best friend.. Ha.. Funny. Biting onto my lip with sudden haste. Should I text back? Should i .. tell him i like him.. Should I? Way to many questions were running through my head at once.
Tossing my phone onto the table again while rolling onto my side, Screaming out in frustration towards my feelings for this boy. Why is life so complicated. Why cant i just be normal..And like girls..why cant i be in love.. and not be treated like this.. Why cant i be happy..
Sudden foot steps interrupted my thoughts of being happy. Slamming of doors then more footsteps coming closer to my room.
"Jace. I know you locked your room door. So open it the fuck up." Hearing my dads voice made my body shiver in fear. Curling up more into the covers before reaching for my phone, Knowing what i have to do, i pressed Re-dial.
One ring only passed.
"Hello?" God he sounded like a fucking sexy beast.
"He's.. At my door." Whispering lightly knowing my father might be able to hear my own words coming out of my mouth.
".. Shit do you want me to come over? "
"No.. No.. i just needed to talk to someone"
"Are you sure?? should i call the cops? " Hearing his voice get worried followed by a creaking sound. Most likely it was his bed.
"No. I’m fine Noah. I'll see you tomorrow at school .. Alright? "
"Alright man.. Don’t hesitate to call me again. Text if you need anything.. Just don’t let him in"
"I kno-"
Hearing my door crack from his body slamming into it with all of his weight. He’s not really a muscle person, but he has a lot of weight on him.
"Jace.. Don’t ha-"
"I have to go."
"No Jace don’t Han-."


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