World Behind My Wall

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic
This song is by Tokio Hotel and this is called a songfic where you write the story around the lyrics. I wasn't sure what category to put this under.

Hope you're able to listen to the song

Submitted: September 30, 2010

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It's raining today
The blinds are shut
It's always the same
Bill could not see the rain. For his blinds were closed tight. But he could hear the drumming of it on the rooftop. This day was the same just as the others had become.
I tried all the games that
They play
But they
Made me insane
Bill had tried to play the game the music industry did, the fans, the trends. But trying to please others and leaving nothing for himself had caused him to collapse within himself. The young man no longer wanted to be a part of society. There was nothing left out there for him.
Life on TV
It's random
But means nothing to me
Bill watched with dull, uninterested eyes as a family crisis played out for all to see. He flicked the channel and a mother held her first new born baby. Tears of happiness ran down her face. But none of their tragedies or successes meant anything to Bill. He knew not the woman who'd just given birth. So why should he rejoice? Bill did not know the family who had lost their eldest daughter by way of freak accident. So why should he mourn for the daughter or the family?
I'm writing down
What I cannot see
He wrote long stories, poems and lyrics on the things of the outside world. But Bill did not know how he knew of these things if he'd never seen them before.
Wanna wake up in a dream
Bill wanted to live in his dreams. Is was only there he seemed to truly find happiness. What was the point of reality? So many suffered at the hands of it. Why not get away from all the pain?
Owow
They're telling me
It's beautiful
Bill's cell phone suddenly began to ring. The sudden sound in the total silence startled him and he gave a yelp of fright his heart sent racing. Quickly he reached over and snatched it up.
"Hallo?" he croaked his voice rusty from hardly ever being used.
"Bill, it's so beautiful outside!" Tom exclaimed.
"Come look at the beautiful autumn leaves!" Courtney added breathlessly. No doubt the two had just been kissing before they'd called him. Both knew Bill had become a recluse but that didn't stop them from trying to tempt him outside.
I believe them
Bill truly believed that the trees looked beautiful with their different colored leaves.
But will I ever know
The world behind my wall?
But would he ever set foot outside? Bill did not know for his wall of depression kept him isolated from the world.
Owow
Bill murmured after he'd hung up. He stood up and crossed the room to stand in front of the door.
The sun will shine
Like never before
He could just see the honey golden rays of sunshine from beneath the door.
One day I will be
Ready to go
See the world behind my wall
Bill grasped the doorknob but for the longest time did not open the door. It was like he no longer controlled his hand. He could or would not open the door. Finally after an hour and a half of standing he turned to flee to his bedroom.
Trains in the sky
Are traveling
Through fragments of time
The trains traveled through time taking pieces of Bill's past and memories. And little by little he was fading away from the world.
They're taking me to parts
Of my mind
That no one can find
And Bill was grateful for this. He wanted a place that was only his. Where no one or thing could bring him back unless he wanted to come back.
I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl
Suddenly Bill stopped running for his body began convulsing. He fell to the floor onto his stomach. The seizure went on for only a minute. It was five minutes more before Bill could struggle to his knees.
On my knees to know it all
Why were his emotions doing this to him? Bill wondered frightened. He had no illness that would cause a seizure to come about.
I'm ready to heal
I'm ready to feel
The emotions Bill had felt once upon time washed over him. And with it came an overwhelming desire to feel the emotions that had caused this seizure.
Owow
Came the howl from Bill's lips. It was almost savage the want to now see the world.
They're telling me
It's beautiful
I believe them
Tom's voice rang in Bill's head.
"Bill it's so beautiful outside!" And Bill fully believed it was.
But will I ever know
The world behind my wall?
But would the wall that had created his isolation let him be free?
Owow
The howl turned to a whimper. Tears slid down Bill's face. They were black due to his eyeliner and mascara.
The sun will shine
Like never before
The honey colored sunshine came back. This time from underneath the blinds. No matter how hard he tried, the sunshine would simply not leave him alone.
One day I will be
Ready to go
See the world behind my wall
Bill struggled to his feet. One day he may possibly see the world. But that was not meant for now, if ever.
I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl
He took a step forward but crumpled back onto the floor. Bill clenched his jaw and crawled towards his bedroom.
On my knees to know it all
He could not walk before he learned to crawl, and Bill knew this.
I'm ready to heal
I'm ready to feel
Bill was ready to heal this emotional wound that he'd let become infected.
Take me there!
He cried out to his brother Tom, as if his older brother could hear him.
Owow
The whimper now a plea sounded from the young man.
Take me there!
Please! Let me out! Bill begged desperately.
Take me there!
Free me from my years long isolation, he pleaded
Owow
The pitiful sound of sadness was heard by no one.
They're telling me
It's beautiful
I believe them
Tom and Courtney told him so much of what they saw of the world was beautiful. And he believed them full-heartedly.
But will I ever know
The world behind my wall?
Would Bill ever know the world behind his wall of isolation? Or was he forever banished within himself?


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